Time of Reflection

When we came to the END of something, season, road, a task or a project even a relation etc etc,

it is the time of reflection. —— WHY ?  on that moment ?

As the task had just completed, ( or the relation has ended ) there is nothing left to think ahead.

So that (as our mind is not necessary accustomed to have blank moment ) our mind was forced to go back

to somewhere we have passed.

We start to think the each moment which we couldn’t forget, not only we have actually done but also

the alternative —— ” It could have done, or If only ——- etc etc.”

As it is literally a hind sight, we can see better way to do it, and different outcome —— hence a

lots of regrets. ——- sound sad isn’t it ?

Why can’t we have the life with no ( well, nothing is perfect though  😀 ) regret.

So, why not to have a moment to sit back and think ——- in advance  🙂

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We have only one life and only one chance.

We can not repeat the same moment in different way.

This is THE reason why we have to put the full effort to the very moment / each instant.

So that, leaving no regret. ( Well, ——- in theory  😀  )

Unlike the life itself, if it was a small project, such as designing small mechanism or electronic circuit,

if it was not perfect ( or not good enough ) I remake it often from the start. ( why not, this is a feed-back )

Though, the real life is not such simple.  Surrounded by so many factors and the occurrences affecting

the decision or others action of which we ourself has little control.

So, we Buddhists call it as the Karma / Fate, or even the providence of the Dharma.  And, we

accept it as it is and effectively wave the right to contest it.  Its mean, Buddhists have no regret.

Whether it was good or bad if it was given, there is no point to argue.  If it was bad, it’s because myself

didn’t do good enough work and the Karma to back fire ——- yet no point to have a  regret, but we have

to learn and do better next time. ( because, we can not change the past —— only look forward )

So, in my case, the time of reflection is not to have a  regret, but to face the music and laugh.  😀

( Oh, c’mon Yoshizen, what have you done ! ! ! —— Ha ha ha 😀  —— like this )

So, Don’t make your life even more miserable with regret, just laugh at it.

( So, life is Happy —— Honest, believe me.  Ha ha ha  😀  )

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Return of Chilean Miner

The return of Chilean Miner is one of the most extraordinary story in resent human history.

It was an exceptional raw human endurance, and the typical technological solution of today.

( I have no idea, how to drill a hole into solid granite and hit the target 2,000 feet away.  What sort of

guiding / detecting system, technology there.  When Doctor insert a probe through blood vessel, he can

see it by X-ray image, even in 3D.  Though, can Radar does the same function towards under ground ? )

That is why the Chileans are so proud of its achievement. ” We can do this “.

In Buddhist’s view it was also the proof of that the Buddha’s insight was bang right.

——- You might say, no, they are the devoted Catholic that’s why God saved them.

I’m talking  not about their God,  but the Universal Dharma / fundamental nature of Human Psyche.

Even though,  their motivation to go down the notorious hell mine is derived by the better money

than the other safer mine,  in other words greed and the ego,  yet still,  if they couldn’t overcome

much more fundamental ego / survival instinct / fear of the death = negation of the self,  they

couldn’t go down to the hell in the first place.

Without this State of Non-self /  Anatman, they couldn’t keep the discipline / diligently follow their

leader / foreman and managed to keep peace in the utterly desperate condition.

If they were just greedy egoist,  there could be easily the fight over the food ( can you imagine, just

one spoonful of tuna fish per day,  under the utterly uncertainty of the fate, for 17 days ).

If , Survival of Fittest was the rule, some of them, much stronger than the leader, could have broken off

and took all the food only for them —— but no such fight occurred.

They had accepted the fate,  there could be the possibility of all of them may die, one by one,  still

without fallen into the madness facing the coming death,  play together and kept Hope

—– waited, and waited, —— 17 days ! ! !

This is nothing but the typical sample of the  Buddhism Paradox / The one

who survived was the one who accepted the death. Non-self is really the key of the survival.

And the Non-self was the foundation of the charity / kindness / compassion —— so, they helped

weakest, and  ALL 33 survived together and came out the hell.

It was not the Dharma helped them.

They followed and kept the rules of the Dharma / they are the Dharma.

( You may say,  why non-Buddhist could know and follow the Dharma —– Dharma is the universal Rule

therefore it rules every body, and all the human being has it in them, whether a person aware of it or not )

Congratulation.

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Poor Nature (2)

Last night, something was creeping up on my leg, inside

of trouser.—- M m m ?

I slapped it over the trouser. —— What came out and

dropped on the floor was a wasp. (By the way,  I didn’t

know, the wasp here is so hairly. —– Click photo to see )

I realized, I’ve just killed a queen wasp who seemed to seek

a place to hide and wait the next spring.

I can guess, inside of my trouser must be warm and good

place to hibernate —— though —— ? , its not very

convenient place for me at all.

——— Still, it could have created a beautiful story

” A  Zen Buddhist kept sitting, in order not to disturb a wasp sleeping inside of his trouser,

and waited the next spring “ —— how heart warming nice story.  😀

Don’t be jokey,  I’m a convicted notorious potato killer and terminating the life potential of 40~50 Kg of

onion etc every year.  I’m not such generous warm-hearted existence.  I’m living on the sacrifices of

millions of another lives,  not mention the billions of germs came into my body and encountered

the T-cell in my white blood.—— I wouldn’t pretend to be any special noble creature with sweet words.

I’m just an another life in the food chain and the minute part of the Dharma in this world.

——————–

Long time ago I read a story ” A Jain holy man offered himself to a tiger and eaten by the tiger”—– ? ? ?

Was he intentionally walked into a forest to meet a tiger on purpose ? —— I quite doubt of it.

And when he was attacked,  was there any another choice, otherwise not be eaten ?

I don’t think so neither.  Even holy man was just a part of the Dharma.  To the eyes of tiger he was just

another play —— yet as a story, we can make up anything sound nice.

——

Anyhow, see the season (as the rest of wasps are dead already) and her body size, it must be a queen.

Its mean, not just a wasp, I’ve terminated her potential whole family. (and her ancestors as well)

But the question is, —— why she choose to sneak into my trouser ?   There must be somewhere

another warm corner in my flat.  She should know, such place was the last place to choose ?

Or am I smelly —— smell of flower ?    I don’t think so.  😀

Unlike blood sucking female mosquito, most insects avoid to encounter animals —— so, was she

thought I’m a kind of furniture ?  Am I  😀

Anyhow, to an unfortunate queen wasp, peaceful Nirvana for her. (I hope, she didn’t leave

a marker to branding me as a public enemy of wasp and make them to attack me next season  🙂  )

—— While I was editing this, on the other side of the world in Chilean desert, last one of 33 miners

came out from the 2000 feet deep mine. —— one small life ended here, yet 33 men were survived.

Congratulation. Viva Chile. 🙂  ( It was an extraordinary story but not just a story.  It was the fact )

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Girlie Pictures

One of my bad habit is to make a collection —– in fact, too many kind of objects, from the stones

I picked up on the top of mountain to ordinary post stamp, small sticker on the fruits, one day it-might-be-

useful kind of all sorts of motor etc.  And I stick those stickers on my PC, Cameras etc etc.  Sigh !   😀

So that, when I made pilgrimage of the Pipe Organ while traveling all over the Europe ——

On top of the necessary tourist information and the town map, I’ve collected the information about

the history of the church and their pipe organ —— all together more than 30 Kg.  😀

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This habit started with a collection of the insects and the plants specimen. ( If you do a lots, naturally

the skill to handle it become sophisticated. —— I received prize, many of it )

When I was a photographer, I had somewhat 50 SLR, not necessary I bought, many of them were given

by the manufacturers, as I was doing camera critics as well. —— And I have about 50 antique cameras.

(To repair those cameras and make them work —— I’ve learned the skill and the knowledges inside of it)

—–

So, when I got inter net connection and discovered Net photo-site,  I realized it is a good collection of faces

——- literally millions of it.  I found a face somewhat resembles a friend in my school time —– saved it,

then another one, and so on.

Then I started to accumulate the faces which give me a tick, somewhat pretty but not necessary beautiful

—— and started to think why ?

Looks very similar but why this one give this impression but why this one doesn’t ?

And end up, now having 30,000 photos.  ( As a by-product, they are good references of body shape for

making sculpture.  Though, when I made Buddha Figure there was no such reference photos, hence

his lung cage has wrong bone structure —– never mind it is not an anatomical model.  🙂  )

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Some of those female models showing identical faces in any photos, even keeping exactly the same angle.

And some others are showing very vivid different expressions in each photos.

We know,  we can guess the character of the person from the face —— and even from the photos.

We only have to be careful not to speak out those observation and judgement because of the so-called PC.

Yet our preference and the attitude toward the individual is judged by the person’s face and facial

expressions / mannerism / subtle difference in the body languages, since we know it in our subconscious.

And some of the people even shows so-called aura. (No explanation.—– I only know it exist as I had seen it )

—— Whether it is politically correct or not,  I can judge ” I like this photo, and save it.  Oh, no I don’t want ”

I have no obligation to spare my  PC’s  memory for unwanted photo. —— There can not be a Buddhist’s

generosity here. Ha ha ha  😀      ( Yet I have an album of skinny bodies collection, even though I hate skinny

body but only for a purpose to see the bone structure in live posture, not by the generosity.   🙂  )

——-

Anyhow I just gave a thought on the assumption of, the expression on the photos reflect the

daily behaviour of the person —— as those models may one day marry to somebody and live together,

then  how it would be the relation and the life there ? ? ?

Of cause,  even the person who showed identical faces in all the photos  has another face hidden behind.

Though, it is about her attitude —— to show only the face she believes her best and able to keep it,

this determination and the stiff will. —— How do you think if this is your wife ?    As she might be a person

of principle, and able to stick to what she want, hence predictable and may be reliable, but is she stable ?

Old wisdom / Common sense says, hard stick breaks.  (When its happens, spectacularly )

In comparison, the person showing wide varieties of expressions —— obviously this person has very

live perception and quick response.  Surely,  she is a kind of person we call  Lively Character.

So, naturally we guess, even in the married life, it would be lively and joyful,—— but can she reliable ?

She may not necessary very thoughtful and may not be very intelligent, so, it needs to be the husband’s task

to pay attention.  Still happy fun-full life may compensate occasional mishap or even a havoc.  😀

—— When I was asked, I’ve been giving the same advise to young man, how to look for the best woman,

” Good lively smile is good, but more importantly, look at the face when a woman expressed her disgust

—— if that face is still acceptable, go for it. Since, in the life, not every day is the happy day, time to

time ugly situation would occur,  and in such critical situation, the ugliness of the face,  which you have

to face, of which  woman can not control,  would make it even worse,  so its better avoid” 

(We can make up smily face but can not control the expression of  disgust )

In any case, go for a type “Girls next door” would be the safe bet.

Better nothing extreme, include the tattoo.  Ha ha ha.  😀

Strangely,  what type of woman you chose is genetically programmed in our subconscious.

And often it is similar to your Father’s taste.  Since, its gene is on the Y-chromosome which

is identical to your Father, as Y-chromosome only comes from the Father.

——————–

You may remember your first love in your school time, suddenly you started to like somebody who all

your friends said  ” Why such funny girl ” —— she was the type you were programmed to choose.

As human being was originally programmed to get marry 15 years old ( This is why in all the culture,

boy’s initiation is about 15 ) the girl you loved on that time was in fact, you were supposed to get marry.

Because it was genetically programmed choice, that love was almost chemical, nobody else understood

why this girl —– still, it was to say Dharma’s choice.   So, the boy couldn’t see her objectively.

It was the unconditional true love (in Buddhist’s term, this is the Fully Minded Love and in Mushin —–

Mind of No Mind = without Thinking process ) hence regardless whether she was a funny girl, it was the

true love. —– to see a girl in objective eyes and consider the other’s eyes or to compare to Pop Idles etc

comes much later —– as the boy learns how to override the subconscious judgement / Dharma’s choice.

Unfortunately we human being had to adapt and bend this natural choice for a sake of artificially

created social system. —– And we grown up were heavily influenced by the false environment of

mass-media and so-called Thinking / social consideration etc etc.

We lost the eyes to see the truth, and lost the ear to listen the voice of the Dharma in our subconscious.

So that, to rediscover where your original taste / choice was, can be the first step to

see who your true self are. ——- (Provided you don’t waste too much time watching boobs  😀  )

So, it was interesting to see from those thousands of faces, after half century,

my own taste haven’t changed a bit.

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Creative Mind (2)

In my life I might have seen billions of images,  I’ve seen hundreds of thousand of Art images include

the artistically well designed commercial products.  And I met hundreds of artists. With a curiosity of

how those artists create their art,  how they conceived the original image or idea. ( Secret of Creation)

It seems there are some distinctive types of creative mind and its mechanism and the tendency.

In most of the cases,  there is the original image or real existence which inspired the artist.

The great artist, Pablo Picasso created many ( too many  😀 ) mind-boggling extraordinarily images,

yet he never created any new image.  He only created new style to show the same subject.

Even heavily decomposed, deformed cubist paintings still maintain the image of the original subjects.

Same apply to Salvador Dali.  Unless the clock with needle hands exist, his melted clock never appeared

in this world. ( Think if it was a digital clock with LCD face, the image couldn’t be so striking as we are

much familiar with  funny shaped plastic products )

So, only pure abstract art deals with totally new image, still, what inspired Mondrian was the Japanese

house interior design which Bruno Taut brought to the attention of the west.  And even looks like abstract

expression of Henry Moor’s sculptures still shows the woman as woman, unmistakably.

Yet still, some artist create utterly incomprehensible image which is not a result of random chance.

Some people are able to conceive pure image which seems to have no origin.

( Here I’m not talking about the twist of ordinary idea such as ” If the bloom handle is straight stick,

why not an useless twisted metal ” or ” If the public display has to be decent and acceptable, why not

smelly animal dung ”  kind of idea ——- it’s still in the logic, only a negative process.  Nothing  new.)

I had chances to talk with those artists who create utterly incomprehensible images and found

they are not necessary aware creating strange image  ” Ah,  I just like it.  It’s  who I am ” —–  ! ! !

It seems there is a completely different type of brain exists.  Naturally they seemed to have very

different perception and the handling of their life style too. —— not necessary street-wise or

smart to sell their art, since they are neither a good communicator. ( often talks incomprehensible

though, the line on the palm indicating, the person got well developed brain )

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They are the person of  True-Self as the one born to be = as the Dharma created. ——– So, would they

make an Enlightened person or at least good Buddhist ?

Good question, and this question signify the clear distinction What is the Buddhist.

——— Once, Master Dogen questioned  ” If everybody born to have the Dharma within, why the past

Great Masters needed to have practice to get it ? ”

The small children are the angels, as they are so natural and innocent ——- as they are in their True Self.

So, the cliché was created.   Of cause, it is only a nice flirtation and the myth. If it has even a shred of

viable significance, 99% of world population is the great artists and the Enlightened people, —— and

the Child Parliament with Child PM governing the country. ( Why not  😀  )

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True Self in the Buddhist term is not simply the self as a person happened to be born with.

It is the Self once denied Self.  ( So, the process is much more important than the result —– in the first

denial,  Selfish Ego and the Emotion would be eliminated.  Hence, in the second denial when the Self was

revived, the Ego and Emotions are missing —– or came under the control.  Self itself looks the same though )

T—

In the zoology, to define whether the particular animal can recognize the self / if the conscious

of SELF exist in them, scientist use a mirror to observe their behaviour. (If the animal can see a   reflection

of him as him or the other animal —– and become aggressive or see behind of mirror etc )

Just to be the Self as he was born, is easy as all the animal is living in this way.  But able to have the

conscious of Self and able to differentiate behavior ( control ) needs to have much evolved brain.

Control  what ?   Control, mainly the instincts, and suppress the emotion. Then able to do something

more complicated projects / preconceived plan with observation feed-back and judgments.

To control the behavior in order to have a harmony with environment,  the observation of outer world is

of cause essential,  and in the same time observation of  the Self too.  This is the Self-conscious.

So that the matter is  if the one can detach the view-point and watch the Self from a distance, objectively.

But, this is nothing but a  Self alienation.   This Self alienation is the trade-off, necessary compromise to

survive in the social environment.  Hence, we social animal / human being was forced to live with the watchful

eyes of the Self.  Then, where is the estranged True Self, became a perpetual conundrum.

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In the Buddhism, the matter of Self and the  Selflessness seemed to be a bit over emphasized  because of

Buddha denied its existence in the first place,  in order to differentiate with the popular Vedic teachings.

But, as I explained afore, the restrain of the raw Self / Ego is the basic rule to live in the society.

( So, we often use the expression ” Play a roll ”  ( Away from  being in the Self )

Even in a pack of the animal, pecking order (control of the greed ) or breeding right of the alpha-male

(control of the sexual desire) etc —— the denial of one’s Ego is the essential rules of the survival.

Buddhism is not asking the follower to do anything special —— just be a sensible member of the society.

Same apply to the Ten Commandments, it didn’t need to be given by the God. It exist long before the Myth

was invented.  Otherwise the primitive society could be fallen into disarray and couldn’t be survived.

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Japanese language having one of the most complicated honorific expression system.

How polite,  has to be exactly matched  to the social scale —- too polite to a junior person mean blunt despise.

( Even a man of respectable position in his forties could lose the trust in just one word . —— I still regret

a word to my professor when I was 25 —— even if it was meant to be a joke )

So that, it is very easy to assess the quality of the person (and their up bringing / family ) just see the wording

in a letter or listen the tongue. —- trouble is, the person  may not aware the situation and what he is speaking.

Here, the clear eyes to see the Self and the reference data to judge the situation is essential.

Yet True Self is ever more reclusive.

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How BUDDHISM deals with TROUBLE

( This is the shortest summary of what I have explained in the past hundred posts )

Half of the troubles in one’s life are caused by  external situations or factors, which is beyond the one’s

control —– the one was in the wrong place in the wrong time.

Though rest of half were caused by oneself which are largely attributed by one’s emotion, including

one’s greed, sexual instinct and emotionally biased wrong thinking —– in another word, Delusion.

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What  BUDDHA taught was the way to deal with those troubles by gaining the clear eyes to

see the situation  AND  the way to control one’s mind (include the Emotion and Instincts ).

——– so, it was the two-way approach, hence the complete package of the solution.

To see the world in the clear eyes with the understanding of its existences ( include the Self ) which are

constantly changing by the chain of cause and result,  is fundamentally rational and factual —— hence,

Buddhism never has a conflict with the science.  ( And the common sense.  😀  )

——-

And to deal with one’s mind which is riddled with Ego, Greed, Emotion and  Delusion, Buddha had

adopted remarkably effective way of practice which can Re-program one’s  Subconscious,

therefore able to eliminate all the effect of those awkward Ego, Emotion etc.

This uniquely Buddhist’s way of practice is,  to repeat the same action or thinking for the tens of thousands

of times thence worn-out the Thinking and makes the action independent and immune from any Emotion.

By doing so,  human mind and the body learns to do it without involving thinking and the emotion

therefore, the action became almost automatic (since emotion is detached) and extremely refined.

And able to achieve the selfless state ( Mushin ) of  the one’s mind.

———- As the result,  the Person wouldn’t be shaken by the troublesome event,  and the Mind can handle

the situation without the interference of the Emotion or  Subconscious blockage,  even awkward trouble

can be solved in the very rational and calm manner.

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True SELF

While ago I’ve stumbled an interesting blog site of a Japanese artist.

Her site  ” ciharukaido. wordpress.com ” showing not only her art

but in fact everything, from poetry to food ——-.

And when  I put a comment to an amazing sculpture

” La geometrie du coq” 2007 ( Photo left ) she replied

” Sometimes your hand would tell you what you

want, rather than thinking ”

——– this is the remarkable words from such young artist.

Among the so-called artists, not all of them reached to the level,

able to conceive the idea in the depth of subconsciousness.

( Lots of them just manufacture it in the process of thinking ——–what is new,  what is in fashion,

how to make it looks sensational  etc, choosing, improvising  from the existing knowledges )

Yet still, some of them are able to do it almost unconsciously with their intuitive imagination, and some are

aware of the difference between the conscious and unconscious process of creation, such as Ciharu here.

——————–

Amazingly, but not surprisingly, this is the same situation of the Mushin ( Selflessness ) and

awareness of the True Self in the Buddhism.

( Incidentally, this is also the same thing to the  Wu-wei ( Mu-i in Japanese ) in the  Taoism, which

was remarkably adopted as the name of new theme in the WordPress Blog design.)

It is no doubt, in many philosophies and the religions, the matter of True Self is the main subject, yet to

some people it is not a subject to seek or debate, but naturally being there.

So, it is no wonder, the art created by this Chiharu Kaido has strange indescribable impact as if it was

a long forgotten memory or genetic vague memory of far far ancestor.  ( So, we say ” I lost word ” )

( Since it was expressed direct from her subconscious without involving linguistic notion / thinking, neither

the viewer can catch clear notion but strange impact of what she felt——eroticism out of word and the time )

This is the sample of the artistic communication between the two subconsciousness.

( If you can see and feel, this is it. ———- If not, forget it   😀 )

So, to be an artist, to be in the true self is an advantage, though whether its Self is compatible with

society is the totally different matter.  They may not aware social convention or responsibilities etc.

The artist I’ve talked about, has just disappeared without delivering the piece, even though it was

paid in advance.  (Some said, never trust artist, only give a money in exchange with the piece  😀  )

Seems it is true.

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SELF in the ART—-(Letter to my friend)

( This was a Letter I wrote to my Artist Friend —-edited extract)

Dear  Artist

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————————-   The art as a career is totally different matter from the art itself.

To my eyes, Art education in this country is utterly fraud. In education general, all the teachings and the

training is for its profession. Except art education.  Art education is giving the utterly useless, unsalable

” knowledge”  “Methodology of thinking”  and a dream of possibility,  irrelevant to the profession.

( Unfortunately Art doesn’t come from thinking ——- Thinking can be taught objectively, but not the Art )

Any profession stands on its specialized skill and expertise, and this skill is the basis to produce

salable commodities. ——– But it is impossible to give any guaranty  with their teachings,  school has to say

” Regardless the skill,  good art sells. ——Fine, good blessing, show me the sample.  Which art, Who ?

No such things in the market.   Except, Exceptional Exception.  (May be less than 100 in the world, which

I can not even name who.  ( I wouldn’t count  Jeff Koons.  His art is a fraud.  It is just the product design

of novelty goods.  I have seen much fancier Chinese room accessories in fraction of fraction of cost )

Simple answer is ” Would Jeff Koons himself buy his piece and want to put in his room ?” Do you think so ?

——— To see the facts,  you may look into the graduate alumnus list,  who is still active as an artist and

able to sell the art pieces.  On the end, it’s not the matter of the education but what the person has worked.

Creativity come from one’s subconscious imagination, not from school.   In another word, can be done by

oneself but has to be done by oneself.  As hard as one worked, the fruits would be accordingly. (With luck !)

In one’s life, what proportion this luck plays, is proportional to how hard the person worked

——– which,  I found so far. Only a knack to capture this luck is, to be open-minded and passive

——– its mean,  be active on your part but passive to see  and  listen to others.  ( It is, for the artist,

hard to do in practice,  yet,  it is typical paradox in the life —— having self-confidence is not the

same to be arrogant and egotistic )

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I’ve seen pretty good artistic art,  though ——- then think,  Does anyone want this in his room ?  or

even in his garden ? ( while parting so much so money )

Only the place, such piece can sit would be an  Art Museum, though it is a bit short of Museum standard.

That is why, its need to be an exceptionally good art,  and only 100 in the world can produce it.

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In sociological view,  Art Education and the Community Art Program etc are for a part of social engineering.

It is a  Redistribution of  Wealth  for the outsider of the social hierarchies.   Since, the value of the Art is a

” Emperor’s new cloths” prize can be given to anybody ( just make a person to feel “Recognized” and Happy

—— otherwise this person may become a social problem or  Anti-Anything-Activist.)

( Am I too cynical ? —— read as a satire or joke.   Ha ha ha  😀  )

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As you know, that’s why I’m not saying  I’m doing Art. —— I say, I’m making something useless for my fun.

Yet,  some likes it saying, it impressive.  If it looks like Art, it is just a coincidence in their eyes which I don’t

know why or don’t care.

———- But this must be the strongest stance to be an artist.

Since the art is the communication between two subconsciousness.

If the sender, artist can transmit the notion / massage which perceived in his subconsciousness,  it would

be received straight by the other’s subconsciousness.  As it doesn’t involve rational filter of thinking

its communication is direct and most powerful. Which people describes “Impressive”.

So, to a piece of conceptual art, people says “Interesting” and forget next day.

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Though I’m not implying, I’m transmitting such deep notion / massage.

Though, I’m definitely making jokes —— of which the jokes derived from deep human psych, almost

physiological level / instinctive emotion.   ” As I feel so, therefore others feel so too”      Ha ha ha   😀

Here the deepest core, stripped naked, even down to the skeleton level of the Who I am, is the matter.

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With a vague understanding of this phenomenon, art critics ( who is not psychologist but just a person

who got pedantic silver tongue to deal with media / most important expertise to be a critics) said,

” When real personality (not one’s style) prevailed and start to freely flourishing,

it is the accomplishment of one’s art”

———This “real Personality”  is nothing other than “the  SELF”  in the Buddhist term.

Which is the core of the Buddhism  but the most awkward subject, of which even 2500 years after

Buddha, still we couldn’t clearly elucidated.

( In fact, even Buddha himself took short cut “Don’t bother, no such thing like SELF existing / It’s a false

understanding, nothing but a delusion.”

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To express “Real Personality”, in other words ” True SELF”  from the depth of one’s subconsciousness is

not the same to expose one’s privacy like Tracy Emin dropping her pants.  It  was just a sheer

misunderstanding of  this   (What really exposed there was ” She got a kind of Ego and Greed which she

wouldn’t care to drop the pants, as long as it sells —– in deed, her genitals could no longer called “Secret”)

Or, for the woman, the genitals is The SELF ?   It must be a controversial question.

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Some artist couldn’t hide their SELF from the start, like Edvard Munch or Van Gogh.  So that it took different

path to establish as an artist (or to be recognized).

——— In my eyes, you got enough skill and pretty good perception to see the things or yourself.

Though I’m not sure whether you got good knowledge to put them into a nice package —– to sell —–

(mind you I’m not talking about picture-frame, but such as what kind of group to be associated with or

how to organize the pieces as a series to give stronger impact, how to create distinctive peculiarity

to your style. ———- I remember the impressive animation you created ——- the perception to

conceive such approach and the way to materialize image is a crucial skill to work such as CM planner or

art director in the advertizing  field.  Artistic creativity is not confined in just like painting or sculpture etc.

Good artistic intuition is the sought after talent in the advertizing, publishing or today’s web-design field.

Good CM or Advertisement catch the people’s instinct,  persuasion / text comes after the impact of eye catch.

In deed, this field is the field of intuitive art.  That’s why they even employ  the psychologist.

You got quite wide selection to spread your wing in deed.

Think about.  Open the door and have look wider field.

———– Return me your thoughts.

Eroticism ? —– Virtual Woman

Photo left is a kinetic sculpture titled ” Virtual Woman”.

The wire mesh torso which rotates  X and Y axis like

a computer 3D cage design,  hence its title.

Before this,  I made three nude figures using same

material and technique.

Despite of those nude figure (I mean female nude)

having supposed to be ideal proportion and curvy

contour,  strangely it doesn’t look erotic.

My friend who got quite a taste of female body (but not empty kind) said, ” Very sensuous but not sensual “.

Wondering  ” Why I couldn’t create erotic figure ? ”   I made most blatant one,  which is just an open-leg

part of the torso,  expecting to see literally naked eroticism.——— Yet the result was far from erotic.

The reaction of female Artist friend  was  ” Your piece is too strong as a sculpture,  leaving no margin to play

with erotic imagination ” ——- ” Thank you very much” ——– ? ? ?

———- Yes, eroticism lay in its suggestive subtlety,  not  naked exposure of ” Thing”,  otherwise

gynecologists can’t do their business.  If it is the case, where this human eroticism came from ?

The Neuroscientists / Human sexologist call this  ” Brainization of the sex” (not sure about this English

translation, as I read about this in Japanese book long time ago).

It is not from the sexual instinct,  as the imagination in the brain needs the source from out side.

So that, the Boys and Girls build up their Erotic Image Library  which is influenced by the Mass-Media, some

became obsessed by the size of boobs others are slim leg etc, and some are even become Anorexia.

Without the accumulation of the original data, we can not imagine anything.  Still,  we have the curiosity as

even a child has. ( This curiosity is at least  Sexual Instinct, which must be the relics of the lost program )

With this curiosity,  we build up own collection of sexual data bank.  Hence everybody got different one. 

But this is nothing but the evidence of  ” We are born without complete sexual instinct “

And as its imagination was made up in the brain,  it is not far from the delusion or obsession

(When a particular thought was associated with certain Emotion and when this connection become

subconscious routine,  it is the Obsession.  For example such as the word  ” Phallic”,  some people

instantly associate the certain shape of object  with  sexual connotation.)

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But the trouble (?) in my case is not the perception,  but the way of expression —— way to make the shape.

One of my friend who knows my celibacy which started 23 years ago, teased  me  ” As you are a dried up

person, you couldn’t distinguish subtle juiciness of the body shape,  you can’t express succulent eroticism ”

” Oh, c’mon,  what kind of death sentence is it ?”   And he said  “But it might be your advantage,  as you

can handle and see otherwise messy slimy subjects, in perfectly cool, objective manner, people feel you

are a safe,  harmless man” ——- ” M m m, is it good things ? to a man who is still believing live and kicking ”

” May be its a trade-off to be a Zennist isn’t it,  by which you have your peace of mind,  I still have a headache

of my wife,  Ha ha ha  😀

——— So it was certified that, me to make nude figure is harmless and safe to the society.  😀

( And, I can continue experiment and research how our creativity and the perception works.)

As a matter of fact,  it has been used on the stage play directed and designed by

my friend Francesco Pestori,  titled  O-Project.

(and I took part of it acting as a life creating Scientist.  It was a fun.   ! ! !   😀  )

PS: This Virtual Woman alongside the Cupidon (pull the arrow and blow up condom) and

motorized  Wire Dinosaur  would be  exhibited at the Rickshaw Gallery,

opposite of  Southwark Station (Jubilee Line), opening  27th May, evening PV (6:00~9:00)

If you are interested to have a fun,  please come and meet them.

PPS: The Moving Image of this VIRTUAL WOMAN can be seen in Youtube / Google [kinetorori]

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Sexual Instinct —– What ?

Quite number of years I spent time to watch  Male – Female interaction in the Club.

As I had free entry to the Clubs as a top dancer, up to four nights in a week,  I was on the floor.

Such as a Club called  Enigma  ( formerly  Manhattan Light ) in  Muswell Hill, London  was where

I spent four nights every week,  nearly three years,  as I was living in the aria.

( After this, I was in the  Fridge Club,  Brixton , every weekend,  nearly six years  with my flushing LED

dancing pants or sound reactive flushing pendant which I designed myself.)

———- But there was funny rules, ” Never mix with clouds ”  I was there only for my dancing not

socializing with people. Exception was a Manager,  Staffs and  DJs /  And the person introduced himself

in proper manner. ( So that, two guys among the cloud became good friends )

By watching the interaction between  young man and  girl, their body language  and  who chose who

and changed to who and so on,  I recorded those observation in my log-book in their nick names.

————- Even funnier story was, despite always there,  never speak to the cloud but to the Staffs

and never drink  alcohol,  many people mistook me such as the Real Owner of the Club or  Under-cover

Detective,  Special Security Person (since, my dance movement looks like Martial Art)

(Those were what the staffs told me, as the people asking them ” Who’s that guy ?  Isn’t he —- ? ” )   😀

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The reason why I chose this topic was,  as  I thought the  Unconscious,  Subconsciousness (in another

word Instinct ) may hold the key to decipher the foundation of the SELF. ——– Sexual Instinct is

the easiest one to start and observe. ( In deed you can watch  lords of lords of activities there )

And, how my observation has reflected and resulted  was, what you are reading in this Blog.

———— In addition, I came to the conclusion

” The mankind is the only animal born without the complete program of the Sexual Instinct “

( I know, at first you wouldn’t agree with this  though,  think deep,  remember when you were small,

when you were first ever encounter the sexual knowledge such as where the baby come from

( did you believe,  a stork brought them  ? ) you must be shocked.    And the first time you try to do it,

how awkward you were  ——- (Obviously, only the Instinct, the mankind got is a vague urge  to release the

physiological pressure / tension —– by any means —– hence, there such wide variety of means and fashions )

In comparison,  other animals having amazingly complexed yet perfected instinctive behavioral pattern,

not only the elaborated courtship rituals but associated breeding activities which works only to own species.

We mankind knows virtually nothing of what and how to do and everything has to be learned.

Because of this inadequacy of the instinctive (ie; IMPERATIVE ) program, human sexual activities having

so much wide variation,  dependent to the culture and early orientation ——- once a person caught up to

certain direction, its tendency getting heavier and heavier.  Though, this is not Instinct but the Obsession.

Because of this phenomena,  early orientation or occurence affect the person’s behavior in unconscious,

subconscious level ——- by which, such as so-called  Psycho-analysis  works.

You must be amazed to hear,  even the most basic part of the sexual reaction,  the timing of  ejaculation

is in fact Cultural.   ( M m m m  ? ? ? )

In the west,  a man ejaculate when the insertion was completed with imprinted stereotypical psyche

” I conquered “.   —— But in the east,  a man has a duty to make a woman to come,  so that he ejaculate

when he felt the contraction,  since he grown up hearing, reading   ” Otherwise you are not  The Man ” and

this subconsciously imprinted obsession controls the timing. ( You can ask around the people, if you dear.

—– so, you do your research ) —– So-called  Tantra-Sex and its naming originated from here. ( Though,

it seems, it was utterly mis represented by the so-called guru  who couldn’t even control  himself )

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This observation gave me the insight, even such basic, ( looks like ) instinctive reaction is

cultural / programable,  so-called instinct or unconscious behavior is in deed Re-programable.

——— isn’t this, the very function behind the  ZEN ?     Yes, it is.