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Self — Phenomenology

I found a talking post in the Youtube, a TV presenter introducing and discussing the topics in the new book = what he found the interesting point in the book.   In this time, while referring to a book introducing the Phenomenology, the presenter picked up that a person expose real self when the person made a mistake, havoc or failure. (Phenomenology is a study to observe / analyse “What was happened” in such “Event” —– so, this technique has been adapted to the Sociology, Psychology etc)    This TV program has been talking about such as a popular misunderstanding, misconception, etc, = give a second thought or new idea to the many daily topics and even an introduction to the Zen kind.

So, what interesting in the matter of Self = “Self would be exposed when the person encountered a bad event” = this IS the same Phenomenon, the “Selfless” in the Zen, but viewed from the opposite direction.  We or a person IS living Selfless as the human norm.  But when the peace of norm was broken at the event, we may get into a panic, or get angry etc and “go into the emotional response”.  These responses tend to reflect the personality = “Real Self”  (Broken something may be a financial loss, inconvenience to live without, or a loss of the precious memento, even a crisis to lose the job with its responsibility = in any aspects, it was the big shock to the Ego, Greed, Sense of security, even a matter of own survival.  And as those emotion is often beyond the rational control, the person act from the deep subconscious = it’s exposes hidden “Self”.  People may interested in to know their “Real Self” though, when actually faced such own response in the moment of “The Event” it would surprise, or even annoyed the person.)

Imagine a situation, when a USB cable was broken — some might shout “F***”, other may get upset “What a bad luck, why today, Why me” or blame the self “Why I was so careless to pull the cable” otherwise, even started to laugh “What’s a day, how silly”   Or, just go to the spare parts box which has been kept for such event. —– Certainly, they were the reflection of each personality.  = When usual kind of the signal was going into the brain = because of the signal was just usual, those signals were ignored by the emotional region (in the limbic system) therefore the daily task would be carried out as a routine, almost automatically, without any emotion.  So, it was seen as the Selfless in the Zen teachings. (Nevertheless, even in the “Selfless” state, all the brain is still functioning just as normal (hence all the bodily function too) BUT only without the Emotional reaction. = its mean, without Ego, Greed, Envy, Fear etc = all the psych emanated from the Emotional region = therefore the tactical response, proper repair etc to the breakage will be carried out with cool rational thinking.)

Though, in a context of the human life, strangely or NOT strangely, those “Emotional Person” was seen as a “Lovable person” and the Selfless calm person was seen cold. (Because, the people can relate to those emotional person for helping, listening, advising, even despising and teasing.)  Life is complicated and hard.  😀    —– Which type you want to be ?



G10 Lens

G10 Lens(1)-A09A7667Generally speaking, the converging lens was designed to project an image — and supposedly a good image.  So, whether it was a cheap toy camera, one time use camera, their lens was designed to make an image as good as its cost allowed.  Its mean when I re-use those lenses, naturally they create quite usable images. (and from their deep depth of field with rather small iris, those images were somewhat focus-free)  But, even among my homemade lenses, if the lens came from somewhere which was not expected to form clear projection (by its lens own), the image was rather hope-less (without having the other lens to compensate the aberration together)   A Lens, which I scavenged from Canon G10 compact camera was that kind.

G10 Lens(2)-5

Photo left was a PENTAX Zoom compact camera.  From this one what I utilized was a mere lens barrel.  And from the photo middle, Canon G10, compact zoom camera. From this massive Hi-tech camera, what I found useful was just a front element of the lens, that’s all. (Like a stepper motor driven F-aperture, stepper motor driven focusing unit etc etc — not mention the screen system, image sensor etc may be used “one-day”  😀 )  And the photo right was the finished product, G10 lens for Sony A7R. = Looks cool isn’t it !  (sample photos which I said hopeless quality may come soon)  😀  (Zen Buddhist would say that, Even a hopeless lens should have a Karma which made him to play a role.) —– Incidentally, today (06-12-2017) was the exact 100 years anniversary of the Independence of the Finland —– Kiitos !


XP Again ?

A09A7600It’s not right.  The HP laptop, which I’ve been using for net connection, suddenly died. In the righteousness of the eastern heaven’s standard, such unfairness shouldn’t be happened to such nice man like me !  😀   Theoretically, I can still check Email or my blog using my phone though I wouldn’t do such awkward work.  HP seemed to be hopeless. Even worse, it’s on Sunday = no help. My friend in the WW workshop texted me “It will be saved” though, I can’t wait till Wednesday meeting.  With a kind of last moment struggle, I tried to revive long dead Toshiba with XP on it. —– Basically, this one is working except the connection to the net. (MS said, that they can’t configure) THEN, if MS said so, how about IntelPROSet Wireless ? = Oh !  It’s works.  Then configure its connection with the router password etc etc. (so-called tinkering = and update many program)   😀 


It was a funny situation.  Window was saying that they no longer support, still they supply some update for XP.   In this way, I managed to access my Email and a lots of lots of trouble, reached to my blog (this one) —- still, in a certain extent it IS working !

A09A7606So, somewhat sneaked out the trouble, and while thinking whether HP could be repaired or not or buy new one —– I’m testing this one (= TOSHIBA saved from a scrapyard) to upload a new post. (while finding out loads of mismatch.  😀  )

Still it’s a fun !   Honest.


Cause and Effect

Generally the eastern people tend to take the fatalistic view toward the occurrences on the life.  So the words Cause and the Effect having more fatalistic meaning to them.   Even if it looks just a rational consequence, easterner take it in fatalistic.   So that when a rock musician died with over dose of narcotic or drink drive, people feel less sympathetic and think it is natural and suits to the person.

What I found the reason of this WAS, unlike the Disney designed character (which was modelled Gilgamesh Myth) of the Western God which decision is not absolute but negotiable, —– but the Ether like Eastern God (? or Heaven itself) spread everywhere, penetrate everywhere IS inescapable, its mean if anybody made wrong, its Effect = punishment is must and Fatal. —– This IS what easterner feel their absolute God and the inescapable Fate. = So, they become a Fatalist. 

(In contrast, you need play hard to take attention of  the Western God who is busy over-worked to take whole population single-handed. = what a poor man !   😀 —– When Jesuit missionary came to Japan, Japanese asked “If your God is such almighty, why he can’t speak Japanese ?” = Hence, they failed to colonialize Japan.  Not only that, Dutch ( = Protestant who only think about a business) took a lots of Japanese girls to the west and sold as a slave = So, they became a hate figure.  Missionary took a free ride on those ships. = too bad for telling a God’s Blessing. = Who could trust such God !)

BBC seems to have the special anniversary programs to tribute to the late cellist, Jacqueline du-Pre who died 30 years ago.   Too early death to such talented musician seems to be so unfair. ( = exact opposite to a junky rocker. )    Its mean, we are expecting a kind of bias towards what happens on our life.  Not a simple cause and its effect.  Sometime get away without receiving any consequence or expect others to get much heavier retribution.  (That’s what we call self-centered Ego ! )  You may feel strange though, I may not hold the position to talk about this subject in the neutral stance. 

A while ago, I found a blog telling the man encountered severe storm in the mountain from first day till the end.  (By its route, they couldn’t have any other choice but to go ahead even under such condition —– It must be his fate, why he went to the mountain in such timing.)   I thought, A,Ha ! the man is receiving the “Good treatment after what he has done”—- Suddenly the story goes back 50 years !  This man did quite nasty things in the mountain, intended to make me collapse though I had the strongest physics among the members (in comparison to a student amateur climber, I was the almost professional mountain keeper as a keeper of the shelter = carrying up, up to 200 kg of food staff every week on the back etc)  So, I just carried on walking —– in the evening, the man got Snow-blind and became camp bound without able to open the eyes with severe pain for the rest of the week. 

Palm Line-000Literally on the other hand, I got a so-called mystic cross in my palm = I was born to be psychic and having the protection.  —– (I fallen twice on the rock without any injury.  I broke two skis but no injury either.  I don’t get ill nor need to take any medicine. Eat anything yet no alcohol or drag, no smoking, no woman — ) Somebody said I’m out of the Karma or even out of Cause and the Effect.  —– (And the other made a joke, if there is no self, even the Effect couldn’t find where to go ! —– Good joke ! )   😀 

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 Then gave a thought, —– this joke might have some truth.   If you ARE clinging “You” = the SELF, you are quite conscious what you did and aware, there must be a certain reaction, Effect coming back.  But, if you ARE not a typical Greedy EGO person, naturally, your action = Cause may not be a kind of greedy act, nor forcing your dominance to others = therefore the reaction, the Effect can not be such hard, and if you were not such self-conscious Me Me Me person, you may not even noticed that Effect was aimed to you.  Being Selfless, you can have much quiet, peaceful life indeed ! = It’s not a joke.  😀  —– So, I might be ignoring many things while thinking  “It’s nothing to do with me” = I think, this kind of person would get no ill. 

In contrast, a person you might know, who is having a kind of ill-health and keep complaining about him (or her) self of the health, the daily feelings and conditions and so on —– it’s really questionable, was that his own ill-health making him thinking and talking, OR his mind, too much conscious and worrying about, making him ill-health ? —– Which IS Causing it ? ? ?

Look, a lots of things in the life were in fact, own making.   It was not because of the Fate, but to born to be the person who makes it WAS the Fate.   As you ARE causing its Fate, you can change.  It’s so simple, just stop, don’t cause it.


Buddha Anime by Osamu Tezuka

In the mountain of Youtube viz, I don’t know how I came to this anime film.  Any how, I watched this viz while skipping a part to part.  Why I did skip was that I knew somewhat about Buddha’s story therefore I could see whether the part was an add-on or other legend or fantasy etc —– in fact, the viz was almost nothing to do with real Gautama Buddha but a story of a boy called Chabla and the military conflict between the Magadha and the neighboring Kosala kingdom. 

The young Gautama was portrayed as a boy troubled with the reality of the life, the sufferings to have an illness, getting old and to die. (not much else, despite the viz spent almost all to a matter of social discrimination = misery to born as a slave )

The author Osamu Tezuka was in fact a PhD in Bio-physics alongside to be the legendary comics writer.  He had a profound knowledges toward the ocultic practices and the belief such as the Boodo etc, so to the Buddhism stories, fantasies.  Yet still something even disturbing me was that the amazing extent of the rack of the understanding toward the Gautama’s mind. —– how he started to cast a doubt to his own position and decided to leave.  Tezuka could have given a much deeper observation toward the Brahmanism dominant society = social cast, idea of the fate = how the man will born and live = not just a superficial phenomena of sufferings but the deeper, fundamental cause determining the human life. 

So, what I found was = its a waste of the time. = Don’t bother with this anime.  😀   (Ask Dalai Lama, how to convert the animals to the Buddhists or which Mantra could make a bird to follow a Holly man even if non of Mantra could stop the killing of Kosala soldiers. —– Since the mother Maya bore the Prince (Gautama) who would become the King of the World, at least the Magada should become a peaceful country away from the royals killing each other.  = Too many nonsense.  —– The most bizarre nonsense was a story, a rabbit offer himself as a grilled meat to a Holly man by threw himself into a fire. = To show an ultimate self-sacrifice ? ‰ ! ‰ ? ! = What a laugh.   😀 )    In stead, you may find the other viz called Hi-no-Tori 火の鳥 more interesting.  They ARE worth spend the days to watch.  The great epics continued on and on with the idea of reincarnation = its mean, Tezuka was thinking the Buddhism mixed-up with Hinduism and he lived in a fantasy world. ( = after all, that was what the children’s cartoon comics IS ! —- I don’t think you expect to learn anything serious from a cartoon comics.  😀 )

Against the Hindu, Vedic idea of the reincarnation, endless chain of the sufferings, Lord Buddha found the principle of the Cause and Effect = Body was the Cause and the Mind / Self was the Effect —– When a body cease, the Mind / Self will cease too. = Nothing to be reborn !    This was the idea only taught by Lord Buddha.  There were hundreds of Hindu, Vedic Guru who was saying the reincarnation but the teachings of Lord Buddha was the revolutionary.    It was really the liberation from a false belief of endless sufferings.  (You may believe that you will reborn — to a beast, BUT that IS all false belief.  = When your SELF is not existing, WHO will reborn ?)   This was the Truth taught by Lord Buddha.



最近、このブログの『ヨシ禅縁起』なる古いポストに加筆をしたのだが、それを目ざとく見付けた人が「お宅本当に根性悪いなァ、50年も前の話に末だ恨みを抱ている訳?」と言って来た。  実を言うと50年に渡りこだわっているのでは無く, ふとその男が山で初日から下山するまで徹底して暴風雨に痛めつけられたという話をNetに書いていたのを見て 因果応報という言葉を思出したからに外ならない。 で、この場合、何が「因」なのかを辿ると昔のエピソードに戻るという訳だ。 この男の場合滑落して死んでいても不思議は無かったのだが、死体を運んで長い雪道を歩かされてはこちらが迷惑。---まァ雪盲あたりが妥当な応報だったのだろう。   

「まるで仏教者らしからぬ言葉ですね」と言うので「仏教が底無しの慈悲などを語っていると思っていたらひどい誤解で 釈尊自身、人を殺しかねない程の厳しさで教えを施していたのです。 つまりそれは甘い慈悲などと言うものではなく本人自身で答を見つける為の鍵でしかなかった。 しかも三回教えても見込無しとなったら、それまでとつっ放されていたのです。 慈悲とか極樂を語っていたら、それは釈尊の教えとは何の関係もありません。何が真実かが問題なのです」 

つまる所誰もが己れの持って生れた運命を生きて行かねばならない訳で、その男が「唯物論はその状況での自由撰択を取るだけで運命などナンセンス」と言うのは自由だが、死にそこなう程の暴風雨は現実に有無なくやってくる。 で、何故かそう言う時に山に出掛ける人が居るフシギ ???    これを運命とか宿命と呼ぶのですが本人、自覚していないから避ける事もできない。ーーー 因果応報の不思議な所はそれがー見何の関係も脈絡も無い所に出る事で、当事者は単なる事故と思っていても, 改めて考てみると自分の血筋は根絶やしになっていたと言う調子で、それがいかなるメカニズムで機能しているのかはまるで不可解。ーーー こうした超常現象がマインドパワー(念力、怨念)で働いていると言う説も有りますが、その割に丑の刻参りの効果が無いというのも周知の事実。 

そもそも応報とは人間の思念に関りなく “天”が決裁して断罪するものなのです。 そこには普遍かつ永久不変、客観的に成立している善悪の絶対的基準が在り、イデオロギーや聖書とかの解釈やイケニエの量で適当に変る西欧流の“正義”とは完璧に異った倫理空間が形成されています。 それが東洋で天とか神と呼ばれているもので、人々が現象の背後に実感している力(パワー)に外なりません。   (ほれ、昔から「神様の罰が当る」と言うでしょう) 笑

オーム教とかいうグループはこうした天の庇護どころか、その力の知識経験も無しに只、ヒンズー教グルの噂話を聞いてそのマネをしていただけだったのです。(2500年前、しばらく苦行僧のグループに加った釈尊はそうした苦行が何の足しにもならない事に気付き独自の教えを始めた) 当然のことながらインチキなオームでは天からの警告を聞く事も無く只ずるずると醜悪な泥沼の深みに沈んでいき決定的な応報、極刑の懲罰を受けるハメになったのです。 しかし最大の疑問は、何故もっと早い時点で幹部などのメンバーが癌にかかったり事故に会って死滅していなかったのか??? (まさか邪宗(まァ、ヒンズー教の一派みたいに見える)にも信仰の自由、平等な生存権が有るなどの屁理屈があったのか?) ---ーー それにしても、それにしても巻きぞえを喰った他人さまはえらい悲劇。

 *****  ところで別の意見によると、これが書かれたのが 13日の金曜日というのが怖いそうだ。(おヤ、そんな事には気がつかなかったが、しかしどうしてそうなるのかね?) 笑

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Heaven or God ?


I just found those photos in the net and I do know not more than any fact of what the photo was telling us. —– may be the photo was genuine = straight record of the aftermath, showing the remaining gate of the Shinto Shrine.


A person who found the photos must be utterly amazed hence just up loaded to the net.   As I have no information of original source, I have no idea whether the photo was taken by the professional journalist or just a passerby, let alone any fact whether the subject was intentionally picked up (such as the survey of all the Shinto Shrine — and the one / only one Torii kept standing — or one of many) or just a coincidence.

—– yet still, seeing one more photo, they convinced me that there IS something.  Think, you were a person who encountered it on the spot.  Even if you didn’t bend your knee there, you must felt a chill on your back and felt, something like Heaven or somebody like the God is there and showing their providence.  (But don’t blame, why send a tsunami or ask why save only a Torii, not the city.   😀  )

This is THE basis of the Japanese Shinto.  We don’t need a fishy sweet words telling the Next life.  We are seeing and keep feeling it IS there.  Unlike an intentionally created, invented idea of so-called God, the supernatural power, or Heaven IS a part of our native sentiment or so-called spirituality.   (That’s why only few % of Japanese is christian. = To the Japanese, Disney like personified God is a joke that’s why no Christian, still almost all of them believe the Rule of a cause and the consequence / the punishment return by the Heaven = that’s their spiritual Ethos.)  So, we don’t steal, nor riot because we know the heaven IS watching us, or living with us.  We don’t need to be told and learn “The idea of Morality” = we have it.  Idea was an invention in the brain.  Japanese Ethos is a part of how we were born.  (Well, ideally —– we have Yakuza too. (But you know, Yakuza’s own rule is as tight as in the army)   And, if you know them, they ARE also nice people.   Ha ha ha   😀 )



Bach — Bernstein — Gould — Zen

Oh my Goodness.    I bumped this old film clip, on Youtube = Leonard Bernstein and Glenn Gould talked about J.S.Bach.
Film was shot on 57 years ago, 1960 then Glenn Gould was 28.   Naturally the film showed the two’s younger looks but what surprised me most was, on that time Bernstein was already “the Educator Bernstein” and Gould was “the Only one, Gould”.

(Other nearby Youtube posts, Gould or Bernstein posts are very educative and highly recommended to watch !)
In fact, me to encounter Bach first time was in the Fellini’s film, “La Dolce Vita” —– in the film, a gossip journalist, Marcello met a church organist and the organist played Bach’s music, Toccata and Fugue in D-miner (the most famous and popular organ music — famous still it was the first encounter to my 15-years-old ear)   (incidentally, that the same actor who played the organist later appeared in the other film “Emanuel” as a sex-gulu ! )

I think, it was the early 90s, I listened a BBC annual radio 3 event, the Christmas Lecture, Bernstein talked about the structure and the music language.  It opened my eyes. —– in fact, it taught me more about our emotion than of the music. —– If the music could expect the same effect, it is the proof of that our emotional pattern is much simpler = such as how we feel from major or minor key, even B-miner is associated with the feeling of death ! — how accurate his view was the other matter, but such a view-point to analyze the relation of us to the music was a shock to me. 

So that, that was the same stance, how and why I adapted my view toward the Zen = instead to see it as a holly spiritual mumbo-jumbo but the scientific / medical phenomenon of the neuro-physical function.

Amazingly looks ordinary young man, Gould was already a master of the finger of a Harpsichordist and already know what is the Bach = mean what he is going to do with him = the man aware of his own karma.  (People became aware of their own karma on their later life —– I wonder how he found it in such early life ?)

***** PS:   Related post (following links)  J.S.Bach,  Aaaaaa~~~~~!  are highly recommended post to go. (They clearly explain what I said here.)


August Moon

August Moon   (In few days time it would be a new moon —– so, a solar eclipse is coming.)      In Japan 15th August is the Moon Festival though, in the Moon Calender, it will be in the September.  But I’m not sure how many people still remember it.  —– They might be thinking more, if north Korean missile is coming when they see the sky now. —— Lunatic isn’t it.


PS : The photo above which was taken by the Tamron SP 500 mm F8 Mirror lens shows the Red and Blue fringe = it is a chromatic aberration.     This is a reputed to be one of the best 500 mm mirror lens in the history, —– I couldn’t accept such flaw in this lens = I may need to check if any loose element in the lens occurred ?   (By the way, why this photo is not as sharp as the other photo “Red Moon” is, this one was taken through double grazed window —– Red Moon was taken while window was fully opened.  😀  )


Omg, Argus-C camera

Encountering something is always out of blue. (You may find what you expected when you’ve been chasing it, but otherwise it would be an unexpected sheer coincidence.)  So, the story here is having such unexpected coincidence. —– A female photographer developed a film left inside of a camera and found the photos of the Mt.St.Helens eruption in 1980. (The story and the discovered photos were amazing enough) 

But for me, what amazed was, the camera which she found in a thrift shop, an old Argus camera, was the same camera I used when I was a boy.  It was in the 1950s, the camera said to be bought from an American soldier.  On that time, American were everywhere in Japan —– not because of the occupying GHQ, but also the Korean war was going on. (Seeing the advancement of Communists, American regret to disarm Japan — so, try to re-arm Japan with so-called “Self-defence Force” which they said “Not contradicting Japanese Constitution which renounced the means of war = because they are only for self-defence not to attack others” then ! = Since then Japan is having this contradiction and the paradox. )

The camera was an American = Argus-C.  The adjustment of double image in the range-finder was linked to the focus of the Lens = it was rather cleverly designed and easy to use even for a 8,10-years-old boy — though both F-aperture scale, shutter speed scale was funny. —– Film used was a Fuji Neopan-S, B/W film and the  Exposure was a guess-work from a film instruction such as “Bright sunny day, use F8 and 1/125th second” kind.  The camera worked well until a shutter blade break off and ruined whole film one day,  still I remember quite a few images such as I did attempt to take close-up of an insect etc without using proper close-up accessory but with an improvised magnifying glass etc.  (Many years later, I got Pentax SP with close-up ring.)   So, to see an old friend was a good surprise ! 



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