Time of Reflection
When we came to the END of something, season, road, a task or a project even a relation etc etc,
it is the time of reflection. —— WHY ? on that moment ?
As the task had just completed, ( or the relation has ended ) there is nothing left to think ahead.
So that (as our mind is not necessary accustomed to have blank moment ) our mind was forced to go back
to somewhere we have passed.
We start to think the each moment which we couldn’t forget, not only we have actually done but also
the alternative —— ” It could have done, or If only ——- etc etc.”
As it is literally a hind sight, we can see better way to do it, and different outcome —— hence a
lots of regrets. ——- sound sad isn’t it ?
Why can’t we have the life with no ( well, nothing is perfect though 😀 ) regret.
So, why not to have a moment to sit back and think ——- in advance 🙂
—
We have only one life and only one chance.
We can not repeat the same moment in different way.
This is THE reason why we have to put the full effort to the very moment / each instant.
So that, leaving no regret. ( Well, ——- in theory 😀 )
Unlike the life itself, if it was a small project, such as designing small mechanism or electronic circuit,
if it was not perfect ( or not good enough ) I remake it often from the start. ( why not, this is a feed-back )
Though, the real life is not such simple. Surrounded by so many factors and the occurrences affecting
the decision or others action of which we ourself has little control.
So, we Buddhists call it as the Karma / Fate, or even the providence of the Dharma. And, we
accept it as it is and effectively wave the right to contest it. Its mean, Buddhists have no regret.
Whether it was good or bad if it was given, there is no point to argue. If it was bad, it’s because myself
didn’t do good enough work and the Karma to back fire ——- yet no point to have a regret, but we have
to learn and do better next time. ( because, we can not change the past —— only look forward )
So, in my case, the time of reflection is not to have a regret, but to face the music and laugh. 😀
( Oh, c’mon Yoshizen, what have you done ! ! ! —— Ha ha ha 😀 —— like this )
So, Don’t make your life even more miserable with regret, just laugh at it.
( So, life is Happy —— Honest, believe me. Ha ha ha 😀 )
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Return of Chilean Miner
The return of Chilean Miner is one of the most extraordinary story in resent human history.
It was an exceptional raw human endurance, and the typical technological solution of today.
( I have no idea, how to drill a hole into solid granite and hit the target 2,000 feet away. What sort of
guiding / detecting system, technology there. When Doctor insert a probe through blood vessel, he can
see it by X-ray image, even in 3D. Though, can Radar does the same function towards under ground ? )
That is why the Chileans are so proud of its achievement. ” We can do this “.
In Buddhist’s view it was also the proof of that the Buddha’s insight was bang right.
——- You might say, no, they are the devoted Catholic that’s why God saved them.
I’m talking not about their God, but the Universal Dharma / fundamental nature of Human Psyche.
Even though, their motivation to go down the notorious hell mine is derived by the better money
than the other safer mine, in other words greed and the ego, yet still, if they couldn’t overcome
much more fundamental ego / survival instinct / fear of the death = negation of the self, they
couldn’t go down to the hell in the first place.
Without this State of Non-self / Anatman, they couldn’t keep the discipline / diligently follow their
leader / foreman and managed to keep peace in the utterly desperate condition.
If they were just greedy egoist, there could be easily the fight over the food ( can you imagine, just
one spoonful of tuna fish per day, under the utterly uncertainty of the fate, for 17 days ).
If , Survival of Fittest was the rule, some of them, much stronger than the leader, could have broken off
and took all the food only for them —— but no such fight occurred.
They had accepted the fate, there could be the possibility of all of them may die, one by one, still
without fallen into the madness facing the coming death, play together and kept Hope
—– waited, and waited, —— 17 days ! ! !
This is nothing but the typical sample of the Buddhism Paradox / The one
who survived was the one who accepted the death. Non-self is really the key of the survival.
And the Non-self was the foundation of the charity / kindness / compassion —— so, they helped
weakest, and ALL 33 survived together and came out the hell.
It was not the Dharma helped them.
They followed and kept the rules of the Dharma / they are the Dharma.
( You may say, why non-Buddhist could know and follow the Dharma —– Dharma is the universal Rule
therefore it rules every body, and all the human being has it in them, whether a person aware of it or not )
Congratulation.
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Poor Nature (2)
Last night, something was creeping up on my leg, inside
of trouser.—- M m m ?
I slapped it over the trouser. —— What came out and
dropped on the floor was a wasp. (By the way, I didn’t
know, the wasp here is so hairly. —– Click photo to see )
I realized, I’ve just killed a queen wasp who seemed to seek
a place to hide and wait the next spring.
I can guess, inside of my trouser must be warm and good
place to hibernate —— though —— ? , its not very
convenient place for me at all.
——— Still, it could have created a beautiful story
” A Zen Buddhist kept sitting, in order not to disturb a wasp sleeping inside of his trouser,
and waited the next spring “ —— how heart warming nice story. 😀
Don’t be jokey, I’m a convicted notorious potato killer and terminating the life potential of 40~50 Kg of
onion etc every year. I’m not such generous warm-hearted existence. I’m living on the sacrifices of
millions of another lives, not mention the billions of germs came into my body and encountered
the T-cell in my white blood.—— I wouldn’t pretend to be any special noble creature with sweet words.
I’m just an another life in the food chain and the minute part of the Dharma in this world.
——————–
Long time ago I read a story ” A Jain holy man offered himself to a tiger and eaten by the tiger”—– ? ? ?
Was he intentionally walked into a forest to meet a tiger on purpose ? —— I quite doubt of it.
And when he was attacked, was there any another choice, otherwise not be eaten ?
I don’t think so neither. Even holy man was just a part of the Dharma. To the eyes of tiger he was just
another play —— yet as a story, we can make up anything sound nice.
——
Anyhow, see the season (as the rest of wasps are dead already) and her body size, it must be a queen.
Its mean, not just a wasp, I’ve terminated her potential whole family. (and her ancestors as well)
But the question is, —— why she choose to sneak into my trouser ? There must be somewhere
another warm corner in my flat. She should know, such place was the last place to choose ?
Or am I smelly —— smell of flower ? I don’t think so. 😀
Unlike blood sucking female mosquito, most insects avoid to encounter animals —— so, was she
thought I’m a kind of furniture ? Am I 😀
Anyhow, to an unfortunate queen wasp, peaceful Nirvana for her. (I hope, she didn’t leave
a marker to branding me as a public enemy of wasp and make them to attack me next season 🙂 )
—— While I was editing this, on the other side of the world in Chilean desert, last one of 33 miners
came out from the 2000 feet deep mine. —— one small life ended here, yet 33 men were survived.
Congratulation. Viva Chile. 🙂 ( It was an extraordinary story but not just a story. It was the fact )
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Girlie Pictures
One of my bad habit is to make a collection —– in fact, too many kind of objects, from the stones
I picked up on the top of mountain to ordinary post stamp, small sticker on the fruits, one day it-might-be-
useful kind of all sorts of motor etc. And I stick those stickers on my PC, Cameras etc etc. Sigh ! 😀
So that, when I made pilgrimage of the Pipe Organ while traveling all over the Europe ——
On top of the necessary tourist information and the town map, I’ve collected the information about
the history of the church and their pipe organ —— all together more than 30 Kg. 😀
—————-
This habit started with a collection of the insects and the plants specimen. ( If you do a lots, naturally
the skill to handle it become sophisticated. —— I received prize, many of it )
When I was a photographer, I had somewhat 50 SLR, not necessary I bought, many of them were given
by the manufacturers, as I was doing camera critics as well. —— And I have about 50 antique cameras.
(To repair those cameras and make them work —— I’ve learned the skill and the knowledges inside of it)
—–
So, when I got inter net connection and discovered Net photo-site, I realized it is a good collection of faces
——- literally millions of it. I found a face somewhat resembles a friend in my school time —– saved it,
then another one, and so on.
Then I started to accumulate the faces which give me a tick, somewhat pretty but not necessary beautiful
—— and started to think why ?
Looks very similar but why this one give this impression but why this one doesn’t ?
And end up, now having 30,000 photos. ( As a by-product, they are good references of body shape for
making sculpture. Though, when I made Buddha Figure there was no such reference photos, hence
his lung cage has wrong bone structure —– never mind it is not an anatomical model. 🙂 )
—–
Some of those female models showing identical faces in any photos, even keeping exactly the same angle.
And some others are showing very vivid different expressions in each photos.
We know, we can guess the character of the person from the face —— and even from the photos.
We only have to be careful not to speak out those observation and judgement because of the so-called PC.
Yet our preference and the attitude toward the individual is judged by the person’s face and facial
expressions / mannerism / subtle difference in the body languages, since we know it in our subconscious.
And some of the people even shows so-called aura. (No explanation.—– I only know it exist as I had seen it )
—— Whether it is politically correct or not, I can judge ” I like this photo, and save it. Oh, no I don’t want ”
I have no obligation to spare my PC’s memory for unwanted photo. —— There can not be a Buddhist’s
generosity here. Ha ha ha 😀 ( Yet I have an album of skinny bodies collection, even though I hate skinny
body but only for a purpose to see the bone structure in live posture, not by the generosity. 🙂 )
——-
Anyhow I just gave a thought on the assumption of, the expression on the photos reflect the
daily behaviour of the person —— as those models may one day marry to somebody and live together,
then how it would be the relation and the life there ? ? ?
Of cause, even the person who showed identical faces in all the photos has another face hidden behind.
Though, it is about her attitude —— to show only the face she believes her best and able to keep it,
this determination and the stiff will. —— How do you think if this is your wife ? As she might be a person
of principle, and able to stick to what she want, hence predictable and may be reliable, but is she stable ?
Old wisdom / Common sense says, hard stick breaks. (When its happens, spectacularly )
In comparison, the person showing wide varieties of expressions —— obviously this person has very
live perception and quick response. Surely, she is a kind of person we call Lively Character.
So, naturally we guess, even in the married life, it would be lively and joyful,—— but can she reliable ?
She may not necessary very thoughtful and may not be very intelligent, so, it needs to be the husband’s task
to pay attention. Still happy fun-full life may compensate occasional mishap or even a havoc. 😀
—— When I was asked, I’ve been giving the same advise to young man, how to look for the best woman,
” Good lively smile is good, but more importantly, look at the face when a woman expressed her disgust
—— if that face is still acceptable, go for it. Since, in the life, not every day is the happy day, time to
time ugly situation would occur, and in such critical situation, the ugliness of the face, which you have
to face, of which woman can not control, would make it even worse, so its better avoid”
(We can make up smily face but can not control the expression of disgust )
In any case, go for a type “Girls next door” would be the safe bet.
Better nothing extreme, include the tattoo. Ha ha ha. 😀
Strangely, what type of woman you chose is genetically programmed in our subconscious.
And often it is similar to your Father’s taste. Since, its gene is on the Y-chromosome which
is identical to your Father, as Y-chromosome only comes from the Father.
——————–
You may remember your first love in your school time, suddenly you started to like somebody who all
your friends said ” Why such funny girl ” —— she was the type you were programmed to choose.
As human being was originally programmed to get marry 15 years old ( This is why in all the culture,
boy’s initiation is about 15 ) the girl you loved on that time was in fact, you were supposed to get marry.
Because it was genetically programmed choice, that love was almost chemical, nobody else understood
why this girl —– still, it was to say Dharma’s choice. So, the boy couldn’t see her objectively.
It was the unconditional true love (in Buddhist’s term, this is the Fully Minded Love and in Mushin —–
Mind of No Mind = without Thinking process ) hence regardless whether she was a funny girl, it was the
true love. —– to see a girl in objective eyes and consider the other’s eyes or to compare to Pop Idles etc
comes much later —– as the boy learns how to override the subconscious judgement / Dharma’s choice.
Unfortunately we human being had to adapt and bend this natural choice for a sake of artificially
created social system. —– And we grown up were heavily influenced by the false environment of
mass-media and so-called Thinking / social consideration etc etc.
We lost the eyes to see the truth, and lost the ear to listen the voice of the Dharma in our subconscious.
So that, to rediscover where your original taste / choice was, can be the first step to
see who your true self are. ——- (Provided you don’t waste too much time watching boobs 😀 )
So, it was interesting to see from those thousands of faces, after half century,
my own taste haven’t changed a bit.
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Yet another 8150
Among the regulars of the Dorkbot gatherings, there is a creative programmer Jagannathan,
who has presented semi autonomous, self interactive moving pattern of enigmatic images before.
On the Dorkboat, he performed an electronic music composed on the spot, jammed with Alex Mclean.
On the boat journey, we talked about our resent activities, since our idea to put his organic program
to combine with my strange kinetic design hasn’t been materialized yet.
I told him about my Youtube images with its key word Kinetorori. To google Kinetorori, it led to both
Yoshizen blog and my Youtube channel.
Along side the Youtube video clip / Cupidon and the blog Kinetorori, inevitably he stumbled upon
8150 story. Which lead him to read a post ” Is Dharma directing us ?”
In that post I was asking the reader to check their Number. So, he checked his Bank a/c number ——
Bang ! —— He discovered, his Bank a/c number having this fatal 8150. ——- Please read
the comments on the post. ” Is Dharma communicating us ?” (To search, type in the box and click )
Later he said on the Email, Shocked and amazed by this. And as he said on his comment, he is
having this only a Bank a/c number since he arrived here 10 years ago. —— does it mean,
the Dharma did know from the beginning, we are going to meet —- or the person who got this
number are destined to meet together?
Jagannathan is not a Buddhist but he believes Brahmanism. Still, what so ever human make up the
name the ultimate power over there is the same entity. All of us are under the rule of this power.
And, in deed we were watched by it.
I gave a thought for Jagannathan’s life —– then I realized a crucial point that is (as he described
in his email) after he experienced the trouble of his program Pirated, he decided to publish them
as open source ” Instead to spend the time to encrypt them, better spend the time to create
something new, which gives more freedom” ——- abandon the ego and greed and
give-away his creation, brought him more freedom and strangely more wealth and stayed in health.
—— this is the very paradox in the Buddhism which I described many times.
So that, the greed-free honest attitude in the life is the key factor, as his life style is far from ascetic —–
having a wife, likes cider and he confessed, its hard to stick with Right-hand Zen. 😀 —– Still,
Selfless, Ego-less free mind may made him spiritually stand out.
Programing is a laborious work for perfection ( if not perfect, it doesn’t work at all 🙂 ) and
even for open source free program, if it is not creative and useful enough, nobody give a sit.
And now he started to wonder —— is this, because of him being protected by the Dharma too ?
( Fascinating isn’t it —— or is it Spooky ? 🙂 )
—-
Short POEM ( but not HAIKU )
( may be titled as ) [秋]———————– Aki / Autumn
————————ある————————–aru / one
————————雨の————————-ame no / rainy
————————朝—————————–asa / morning
————————アスファルトに————asphalt ni / on the asphalt ( pavement )
————————アシナガバチの———-Ashinaga-bachi no / a Wasp’s
————————死骸————————–shigai / dead body
————- Well, this poem was composed in my twenties when I was having evening class of
an Advertising Copy-writer’s training. ( Since, I didn’t expect Industrial Sociology BA may not enough
to go into Advertising or Publishing industry) I wanted to have a skill to compliment my photography
and I was writing lots of poems. ( Preceding to this, I was a fanatic of Jean Arthur Rimbaud )
————– In one glance you may noticed there is no subjective word / Who is watching a dead wasp.
This is a deep and long tradition of the Japanese language —– not clarify the subject word.
This is a part of the Buddhist’s culture combined with Confucians ethos.
Name Me is arrogant. Self shouldn’t be there. And name You is disrespect —— it should be only
implied by the proper use of honorific expressions. —— hence, all the HAIKU is missing subject word.
More importantly, without seen by anybody, the pavement and the wasp is still there. We were not the
designer of the world or control it —- How, Self can be there. Why we need to assert I am watching.
( Hence, lots of old Haiku is based on a man’s vulnerability, a powerless observer’s sentiment, Wabi )
Japanese has been using the same language all through the history ( well, classic style is a headache
even for me 😀 ) and having such thousands of years history with Buddhism culture in the bottom,
translate it must be a daunting task, much harder than a Japanese to read Chinese Buddhist’s Mantras.
(So, it is no wonder to find lots of misunderstanding of Japanese Buddhism and wrong translations there)
In comparison, when I read an English translation of Heart Mantra, translated from
the Sanskrit, I was rather amazed ( and disappointed ) with its clarity as there wasn’t enigmatic
[ Mysticism ] left there. 🙂 There was no mysticism in the Buddha’s teachings.
It was our own creation with over jealous expectation. (save my 8150 story. It’s not my creation. 😀 )
In the Paradox of Buddhism, mysticism never appeared where expected. Because the expectation
is a thought emanated from one’s ego —— which against the Mushin / No-Mind.
—-
Here another poem which I wrote when I left Japan. ( No need to have a title )
( In hind sight, this was the moment I became a Bhikku )
—
美しい手紙を書こうと思った—–Utsukushii tegami wo kakou to omotta / I wanted to write beautiful letter
私は詩を勉強した——————Watashi wa Shi wo benkyo shita / I studied Poetry
* * *
手紙ー通——————————Tegami, ittsu / A letter
母へ—————————-———Haha e / to my Mother
—-
ありがとう——————–———Arigatow / Thank you
ごめんなさい———————-Gomen nasai / Forgive me
さようなら————————–Sayou-nara / Farewell
—
( This could be the shortest poem as it using only three most ubiquitous mundane words yet to describe
a man’s whole life. As after 35 years I still couldn’t find any shorter, fewer word could do the same.
The space inside of Zero could have whole life history and all the thought —– yet no need to talk
or discuss. Just shut a mouth and a thought. ——– it is almost like the Zen, isn’t it )
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God — Who ?
The trouble of the personified western God is, —– (there are too many 😀 ) as he was personified,
he came under the logic and the rationality of the human being. So, he can be questioned.
Who is the Mother of God ? Or was he suddenly created out of nothing ?
If it was the case, who created him ? Was there another God somewhere ?
And in that case, he doesn’t have a belly button ? ( Therefore the first man created by him / Adam didn’t
have neither. ) If he didn’t have mother, thus without knowing how the conception occur and it is
essential to have male and female to copulate etc, —– How he managed to create all the animals in pair
but forgot to create female human in the first place ?
——— so, it remains in the myth, and beyond the logic.
Then, poor Adam and Eve went out the Eden and raised a family ——–
The son of Adam and Eve married to each wives ——- What ?
Where those women came from ? ——– Or, are they actually the sisters ? Married to sister ?
When fuck a sister is not a sin, why bother eating apple ?
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It is better to leave mythical existence as an abstruct myth. Man made story all ways break down.
Yet still, such story was forced to believe (hence it is the Dogma) and anyone contested it has been
severely surpressed, such as Garileo (of cause he didn’t argue about the belly button,
it is the children’s joke) his question was the slight wobble of the planets and why.
God is the power and the order of the universe and it is invisible. Attempt to describe it by
a manmade words is the sign of disrespect. We human can not see everything or able to know.
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Super Natural POWER (?)
There is a popular misconception, the religion has super natural power. Or super natural vision
can reveal the truth. If such claim is in the market, of cause it is only a spin to sell dubious products.
Same as ” Use this special formulated cream, you will become Hollywood beauty at once”.
If such claim has any substance, all the population in the world should be the Holly Man now
and never had war or mass killing. And the Amazon natives who said to have “Vision” by the
hallucinogenic chemicals from the magic vine, shouldn’t have marginalised.
I never hard any positive contribution from the Vision made by drugged brain or the people. (Have you ?)
Russian government had spent millions of money to research those Para-normal power for
military, espionage purposes without single positive result.
Yet still, everybody knows something is still there and I too believe now. (with my 8150 story)
Though, the trouble is they are beyond the human control. We can not resort it to the intentional purpose.
( I still couldn’t figured out how my parents could able to predict somebody’s fate, and what is behind of
Chinese I-Chin)
Yet still, the Power over there, what Buddhists calls Dharma is active and makes no mistake.
This is my understanding, some may calls it my belief and religion.
So, What ?
99th POST / Seal of Approval ?
It is a bad habit of an ex-sociologist. Just watching the ongoing phenomenon and analyzing, try to see
if any tendency or peculiarity persists in this blog here ?
Stumble to my blog, the people type search terms then it may link up to my blog, end up here.
( Wittingly or unwittingly. 😀 ) —— Lots of people were misled by the Googled list “xxxxxDo” which
was intended to represent Ken-dou, Aiki-dou, Sa-dou kind of practice, but seemed to be mistaken as
a hard-core porn site ——- must made them hugely disappointed. 😀
The most peculiar search term and a person end up here was ” Trespassing Buddhism ” How interesting !
This suggests, either the Google’s automatic key-word linking program defined me as a trespasser or
somewhere in the Net, there is someone’s description talking about this blog as a trespasser.
———- In certain extent it may be true.
After I left the gate of Eihei-Ji Temple, I never asked any monk to lead me through the path-way.
( Even though in many occasions, I questioned them of their teachings Why ? But I found no Master.)
So, I had taken practices to attain Mushin myself while observing how the brain works with it.
So that, I might have parachuted to the sanctuary of the Zen, without coming through the traditional
path-way or front gate. Thus any monk found me standing in the sanctuary wearing flashing LED
Disco Pants, must thought I’m an intruder. 😀 Though, it was just an arrogance of them who is thinking
they are ” The establishment, monopolizer of the Buddhism “.
But ( I use a metaphorical words I’ve used somewhere else before ) Room A’ is not a monopolized
sanctuary, it is the open space as the Mahayana Buddhism stands. —— Any how Room A’ has no wall
or roof, easy to come with parachute. Ha ha ha 😀
From the state of Mushin, I started to walk the path-way back ward, like a Reverse Engineering
to see how the system works and why the engineer has designed it in this way.
So, why Buddha and the past Master had to teach in this way ? — Luckily the hard ware / the Human is still
the same Human as in the time of Buddha, having same nerve system, brain structure and same physiology,
therefore the phenomenon which Buddha had observed, could be reproduced and analyzed today.
And of cause, those observation in the 21st century have to be explained in the knowledge of 21st century,
otherwise it wouldn’t convince the people today. —— Buddhism is not just an ancient wisdom and
can not stay like an ancient wisdom. In deed, Buddhism is not an ancient mystery, but it is a
finely tuned technique to re-program the human subconsciousness and its perception.
As Buddha ordered to his disciples, we too have to think ourself, but as a man in the 21st century.
After I started this blog, when the Broadband
malfunctioned, the Dashboard failed to show
stats’ graph, instead, the space showed its
Flash Player’s plug-in URL ( Photo left ).
Seeing this URL, I was shocked like hit by a lightning.
” Good Heavens, 8150 again. Buddha is watching this blog. There is no escape” ——-Since then,
I’m still alive, didn’t get cancer like others who betrayed me and able to keep blogging in the same way,
and here, a significant mile-stone 99th post.—— its mean, it was not a warning shot or a halt.
( I wouldn’t go to ” It is a seal of Approval ” though —- it might be. Otherwise why Dharma bothered this ? )
Please read a post ” Confidence to be Here “. This 21st Century interpretation of Zen is right.
Hence Dharma and Buddha is watching us. ( Me and you, who is reading this as well)
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PS: —————–
( Unfortunately, this 8150 is my last conundrum, this is the last mystery which I couldn’t find 21st Century
explanation —— it’s just following me / yet still, other than Dharma, who else could do this ——- ? ? ?
As a matter of fact, until I saw this 8150 sign appeared in my URL in Youtube and here, I was a bit skeptic
about the implication, as it could be just a coincidence though, Youtube and this Blog URL are not random
occurence, but specifically belongs to me. I was convinced that they are the intentionally targeted sign.
Around the Buddhism, there are hundreds of recorded mysterious stories, though there was no convincing
explanation ever given, and non in any mantra, even Buddha gave no answer —— still everybody
knows, it is exist ——- it is nothing but a headache though, have to accept if its comes and this might
be the sign of my Karma and the duty which was assigned to me to do, and why I was born. )
—-
PPS: I haven’t explained here, what 8150 mean. If you are interested, please click a category above,
8150 Story and scroll down to ” Is Dharma communicating us ? ”
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