CIRCUS but not inside
As autumn approaches, the air is getting clear and having bright sun, I grubbed my camera
and went to a park —– what I found was a big Circus marquee and loads of heavy tracks.
In certain extent, they are big sculptures = I like those shapes and contours.
No fancy animals, no lion or elephant but just horses but they got cute mini pony.
What I found there was a lots of fancy people who came from all over the world, include Japan.
And I realized, Circus is not just a venue to give an entertainment but it is a mobile village of
self sufficient industry which contains power generator, engineering workshop to mobile
laundrette. —– yet strangely, they don’t have staff canteen or nursery, school for kids.
Cooking and eating seemed to be done by each family or performer’s group = so, it is somewhere
between cult commune and small village = seems very interesting community.
Photos taken by Canon 5D MkIII / Pentax 15mm f3.5 / Canon 100mm Macro f2.8
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禅の源流 / How Zen was started
勤行や禅における日常の勤め,実践について具体的に説明した言葉は古代の経典の中には登場して来ません。 単に善き仏教者である為の身だしなみ,心構えが書かれているだけでそれが実際上,
本人の心理生理に いかなる変化をもたらしているのか,そのメカニズムに対する考察が行われた事は仏教2500年の 歴史の中で,かつてー度たりとも無かったと言えるでしょう。
唯ーの例外でそれに近い考察はアーラヤ識という概念(潜在意識に近い)の登場でしたが実際にそれが構造的に,いかに仏教と関っているかが考察された訳ではなく単に存在論,認識論=存るのか無いのか=単に存ると思うだけなのか=>「アーラヤが捕えたものこそが真実」という考えであったにすぎず,
仏教における 空,無,無心,在=不在,不立文字,以心伝心 といった概念の全てが実は[不可視の潜在意識]故に出て来ていたという事には思い至らなかった訳です。
そもそも2500年前には[潜在意識]という概念は無く,その透徹した眼で己れの深奥に在るそれを見すえながらも,それを説明するのにはさすがの釈尊も手甲ずったようで,色々な喩えにたよらざるを得なかった。
例えばダルマ/法とともに在る喜びを「ー切矛盾の無い理想境,極楽に暮すようなもの」と描写すればそれが潜在意識中の満足感,ドーパミンホルモンの横溢による気分のことと理解できなかった者,後世の読者は字づらから「釈尊は極楽が存在すると言われた」と誤解する。
眼前に無くても,潜在意識はその存在を知っている場合。逆にそこに在りながらも,その確証が無い。理屈で解っても,どうしても受入れられないとか。そうした意識はどこに在るのか?
大乗仏典独特の「在るのではなくして在る」といった苦しまぎれの表現は全てこの不可視の潜在意識が存在する故に出て来たものです。(しかしこの不確定性は物理学上のものではなく人間の知覚,認知の ニ重性から生じるもので,先ず潜在意識で直観した情報を選択的に処理してから思考領域で概念化,言語化する為に起る=つまり無心というのは潜在意識での直観,判断に従い,追加処理の思考を排除する事。 ー方,無私というのは受覚した情報を情動域との連鎖無しに処理する事に外なりません。=情動抜きであるから心は平穏)
[]ほとんど所有物もなく比丘としての生活を続けていれば毎日の生活は単純なパターンになり殊更「自分がこれをやっている」という意識を抱くまでもなく,無意識のうちに作業を完遂できるようになるものです。 これが[無心]というものの出発点ですが
釈尊につき従っていた弟子達は同じ作業,同じ所作を無条件に模倣し毎日それを繰返していたので[無心]で作業するという事はわざわざ言われるまでもなく自然に身についていた訳です。 つまり,わざわざ書く必要も教える必要もなかったが,はるか後,孫,孫孫弟子の時代に,それ程の人徳もカリスマも無い老師の元に何十人もの弟子,しかも中には懐疑的反抗児も居ると言った情況になると,何か特別な教育法を考え出す必要が出て来た訳です。
[仏伝に登場するシュリバントクの庭掃除十年の話も,芥子の実(英訳ではマスタードの種子となっていますが)を捜して走り回ったキサーゴータミの話も,いかに
釈尊の教え方が臨機応変,方便に満ちたものであったかを言うのみで,そこに在った延々と繰返される反復動作というものの側面は忘れ去られていた。(反復動作=同ー信号の入力は脳の情動域が無視するようになる為,「自己の」というタグ無しに処理されるようになる。-方,運動域には動作全体がパターンとして刷り込まれ自動的に処理されるようになる=結果として自己意識/自覚/自我を抜きにして行動できるようになる=これが無我無心です)
はたして中国に禅を伝えた菩提達磨師がこうした情況をどこまで把握していたのかは全く不明ですが (達磨大師にまつわる伝説は荒唐無稽なものばかりで,その最たるものに師は青眼であったというのがあるが絶対有得ないハナシ) 間違いないのは,師自身は古代ヨガ (含む,古代の舞踏ヨガ=南印度のバラットナットヤムダンスの源流) の達人であったという事でしょう。このヨガの動きがブラジルのカポエラ様の,複数の人間による瞬間的対応のゲームといった過渡期を経て云わゆる小林寺拳法に進化したというのは疑いない事です。---瞬間的な対応は無意識だからこそ可能なので,モタモタ考えていたら即ー発喰う。
菩提達磨師の着目したものはここに在る[無心]とその效果で,これこそが[無我,無心]に達し[ダルマ/法に身を委ねる]最上の道と喝破した訳です。
己れの生に対する執着,「これは殺されるかも」などといった恐怖が有ると体が萎縮して元々持って生れたダルマの自然(じねん)すら働かない。思考も感情も抜きに,「己れを捨ててこそ浮ぶ瀬もあれ」と言われる由縁です。
[菩提達磨師が空観,無我無心に立った仏教を説いた中国には既に[無為]を説く老荘哲学が流布していた。「意図的には何もやるな。全てを天命に委ねよ」と説く老子の教えは「己れを無にして法に身を委ねよ」という大乗の教えと共通のものがあり,概念の翻訳設定や用語の選択をする上できわめて都合が良かった訳です。 しかしながら既製の用語を使う為に,どうしても元々のニュアンスが出て常人の日常生活に主眼を置いた大乗印度仏教も中国化し,むしろ通念に縛られない事を旨とした独特な禅仏教が生れたと言えます。
(同様な意味で,日本の禅には神道の純粋主義,武士道が影響して,仏教の中でも特異な硬派となっているのでは? —– 同じ禅でも中国人は[無為]は言うが[無私]はやらない。最も悲観的,厭世的で[捨身](しゃしん)と言うのは日本人だけで,お寺が喪式専門になるのも日本独特と,うなづける )
[]人間も含め,万物=ダルマ/法が元々[無我]であると言うのは,バラモン教/ベーダの言うアートマンに 対立して示された
釈尊独特かつ当時としては革命的な発想ですが,この本源的[無我]ゆえに自己意識,我欲などは全て己れの想念の作り出した妄想に過ぎないという教えを納得するには既に[無心]を体感し実践している中国人にとってもいささか時間がかかる。それが納得でき潜在意識の深奥まで 染みつき,無意識に[無我,無心]の行動が取れるようになるまでの修業が[禅]と名付けられたプロセスです。
---で,本人無我無心の内に作業を続けそれが完成したとする。
=それでは,これを作ったのはいったい誰なのか?
=それが外ならぬ持って生れた,内なるダルマ/法であるというのが
釈尊の教えです。
つまり,禅に限らず仏教は現に作業してみない事には体感もできなければ,その体感の経験に立って考えてみる事も納得もできない。座って考えていても何も把めない訳で,仏教の全ての宗派が延々と続く反復作業を修業として課しているのはこの理由からです。
当然ながらー二回禅寺に行って座禅をしても足が痺れるだけで何の足しにもならないし,釈尊にすら説明できなかった事は解説書を読んでも把めない。つまり禅には学んで理解すベき事は何ーつとして無いし,禅を理解するというのは有得ない。 実際にやってみて,出来るか出来ないかしかない訳です。だからこそ,自転車に乗れるか乗れないかの喩えが使われる。
しかし[無心]の作業というものは日常生活の中にいくらでも在り(当ブログの中で「レモン禅」のカテゴリーに分類されている例),=それこそ単に歩くだけでも体験できるものです。その体感を出発点に禅の世界に入っていくというのは誰にでも出来る事。道元禅師の僧食九拝の教えは将にこの事です。作法として細かく様式化されたそれぞれの作業に集中しそれを緻密にやり遂げていく、この作業を修業としそれを雑念無く無心に行える事をめざすのが禅に外なりません。(無念無想、一切のこだわりを捨てよと教える一方で徹底してこだわった細部までを習得させる矛盾はともかくーーーまァその作業を五年十年、百万回も繰返せば無意識でも完璧にやり遂げられるようにはなるでしょうが)
逆に言えば禅,及びその心理作用は必ずしも宗教に直結したものではなく,むしろ心理工学と呼べる ようなもので,
無我無心である事で心理的拘束から解放される自由度にむしろ利点があります。(情動領域での 好嫌,損得,エゴといった自我意識を誘発する事なく判断行動できるという事) =当ブログに奇抜な試みや変った造形物が色々登場して来るのはその自由発想の見本です。 (しかもそれを黙々と作る手作業は,禅以外の何物でもない---で,結果として出来上ったものも満更悪くないと,本人マンゾクしておりますが如何?)
---つまる所,人生楽しく生きる事が肝心!=それが本来の禅というものです。(強もての達磨師が弟子達と,踊るように体をひる返している様を思い浮ベてみられよ---渋っ面の老師のやる事ではないでしょう。 笑)
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James’ Birthday Party
My friend James had a big Birthday Party. So, those are the snap shot of the Day.
Many guest arrived with a present and a card, and their proud cooking as well.
(I brought the materials and cooked Miso soup in there. —– and brought that
Fun Clock 🙂 ) Therefore, James had to carry out the task to open the heavily
wrapped present with joy and the surprises. Especially somebody brought hefty
Astro Telescope as a present, serious construction work had taken place, with
excitements and the puzzle of kids and the grown-ups alike 😀
Mountain of the food has been prepared by his wife and his sister and more dishes,
casseroles were brought in by the friends. Soon, they were over flow out of the table
and on top of them, yet another BBQ was prepared in the garden.
———- ( Kids staff 🙂 )
———- ( and here, Baby staff 😀 )
When, night fall = good number of the fire-work were shot.
Looks pretty impressive 🙂
Then James was asked to give a speech 😀
—— and a big chorus of ” Happy Birthday to James” 😀 😀
As the Moon rose, people had to queue to see it in the Telescope. I wonder now on,
is James going to watch the stars on top roof of the former Greenwich Town hall 😀
(where we are using its rooms for Wireless Network weekly meeting).
M Party went on to pretty late night.
M The friends kept talking and drinking.
M —– I don’t know till when 🙂
M (I had to excuse to catch a bus before midnight)
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M What I found in his house was this painting,
M —– said to be the Old-masters painting !
M M m m m ? ! —– Really ?
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Fun Clock for James
One of my friend James Stevens is going to have his 50th Birthday party in this week.
James is the organizer of the OWN (Open Wireless Network) and having a workshop,
advising the people for their use of computer, network connection etc.
What remarkable about him is, this [etc] part.
He does everything about electronics = from lighting to PA, audio system to how to
organize and set-up the event. Hence, he knows everybody in the field and knows
“Who got which equipment, in where etc” = therefore, able to hire (or let the others
to hire) thence able to organize fully equipped film event, art event, about anything.
He is everywhere, in fact he is the Don.
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This remarkable character came from his fundamental open minded attitude to see
anybody and help anybody who came to him. So that naturally he learned everything
and acquainted right people in every field. He himself isn’t an authority of everything
but a man to know the authority who can help him = therefore he doesn’t need to be
an authority nor boss still he can solve all the issue as others follow him.
In my eyes, he is a Good Buddhist at work = helping others and make things happen !
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—– anyhow, as he said he is going to have a birthday party, I prepared a present
for him. = I made a fun clock.
(I never sold my work but just give them to the people for such occasion).
( I don’t think I need to explain about this = this is what it looks and function as it is,
that all though, if I may boast, its looks silver wire is in deed Staring silver ! )
Happy Birthday James.
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Double Density Pinhole Photo (2)
As I promised before this is the sample photos of “a bit sharper Double-Density-Pinhole
Images”, and those photos were taken by the Canon 5D Mk 3 and Nikon D810 camera.
Both of left images were taken by Tamuron 90 mm Macro Lens with F-setting 2.5 (fully open) 2000th second. ISO 100.
Top two were by Canon 5D Mk3 and the Pinhole image was taken ISO 1600 and AV setting (0.8 sec with +1 1/3).
Bottom two were by Nikon D810 and the Pinhole image was taken ISO 6400 setting.(Non-CPU-Lens setting = Camera says F45. 1/2.5 second ).
—– By the way, I haven’t found why the Canon’s image (Top two) having Magenta and Green cast. Both Cameras were set to AWB (Auto White Balance) though, as cloud moves, lighting condition was not exactly the same, therefore don’t make a conclusion about the color contribution of each camera on those photos.
Above those 6 photos were taken by D810, ISO 6400, F-setting was F45 or F64, Shutter time was 1 second ~ 1/4 second. (with lots of Re-try 😀 )
On this time, Outer Pinhole was 1.2 mm and a smaller pinhole was made in the center of Metal-coted film, and the panel was mounted on Nikon Revers-Ring (hence, it enables to use it in different focal length, with or without extension ring.
And with [Nikon —> Canon Mount Adapter] the same can be used on Canon as well) 🙂
As Pinhole panel was fixed on a revers-ring, it enable ( just 🙂 )to use ordinary Lens-hood (Lens-hood is essential) = two photos above are the sample when hood was dropped and direct sun light hit the pinhole, though some might like a photo with strong halation 😀
By the way, I cover the Camera etc, with lots of stickers to conceal Camera name, Model name etc —– to make it looks cheap, and my friend who actually possess D810 adopted the same attitude = It would discourage a mugger 😀
After dealt with a lots of Pinhole pictures —– ordinary photo looks rather fresh.
It looks not too bad too. Ha ha ha 😀
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What Photography to do with Buddhism
Someone asked me “ Why Photography in a Zen blog ?”
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The understanding of Zen is so wildly varied, let alone the understanding of the Buddhism.
It spreads from vague spiritualism to an endless peculiar practice.
A reason is that it lays in the person’s subconsciousness. Hence, the person oneself couldn’t
see it clearly, let alone the others, even the teacher.
Since, it was not clearly written down like as a Dogma, and to memorize it doesn’t mean
understood the Buddhism. (Though, some sect says, they got 100 of the rules written down
and follow them is the completion of the Buddhism.)
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My discovery of the Zen came from a peculiar practice = Disco Dancing 😀
With a peculiar mental tendencies habituated in my subconscious, I realized, this is
what people called the Zen —– Like a Pathological diagnosis, I found the symptoms all
matches to the description of the Zen of the past masters =
hence I understood, what I’m living is the Zen.
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So that, in Zen, the matter is a mental state or so-called mind-set, while the one is DOING
something. = Doing it unconsciously with the mind-set of what
Lord Buddha stated = IS the Buddhism. = Hence, able to receive all the benefit to live with
the Dharma. —– Here, it is crucial to be unconscious (=in Mushin).
We can do a thing without thinking but not able to do thinking without thinking 😀
Try to do Mushin or talking it consciously is just a pretense or mimicry 😀
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Photography is a secondly art (it doesn’t mean second class art 🙂 ) = unlike an abstract
drawing or sculpture, unless the subject is there, its photograph couldn’t be created.
In other words, photography has to follow the existence and its moment.
That moment is the only moment. Photography is to capture and deals with this MOMENT.
As Lord Buddha stated, “Nothing stays the same and they change moment to moment”.
= Photography has to face this situation straight.
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Why and how you encounter its situation or subject was not necessary what you expected or
designed. = To encounter it was what the Karma has worked. You may think that
the idea to come to the garden to take picture was what you conceived and planed by yourself
alone though, without Karma has had pulled a string, you didn’t get the idea in the first place.
Whether you are aware or not this is how the system works.
And this system = the mechanism of the Dharma is what
Lord Buddha elucidated. = This is the Buddhism which is applicable even to a non-Buddhist.
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And we have to follow the subject = we didn’t create it, hence this is a secondly art =
we have to accept a humble position to be a secondly creator. Therefore, we have to see
the world with humble open eyes but at most diligent way, down to the minute details.
Once we start to see the subjects, what we are seeing is the environment or most likely
the nature. —– In fact, we are seeing the Dharma.
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When we try to capture and focus the subject, are we thinking what to eat for lunch ? =
Not only the lens, we are focusing what we need to do without any thinking but with full
attention to the subject on front of the camera whole heartedly.
This is the moment of Mushin and the Mindfulness.
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Then “Got it” = but what we got ? —– Even though we might think “I’ve got iconic image”
it is a mere reflection of the subject in the memory card, which could just disappear with a
glitch in a computer. —– And in most of the case, it wouldn’t do anything with the person’s
finance = it is nothing but a selfless, greed less act = expect no reward, still needs to put
so much effort for taking.
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—– Isn’t this Zen Buddhism ? —– If not, What else 🙂
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Double-Density Pinhole Photography
Ideally, soft-focus image should have solid focused core and the soft flair around it.
The more the photographer is decent grown-up person, even soft image is rather subtle. Though, I’m not very well grown up decent kind = tend to take it to the extreme 😀 (Hence, if I cook for myself, the taste is pretty strong = if it got to be spicy hot = it would be extremely HOT = Otherwise, what is the point to cook hot food 😀 )
Therefore, my soft-focused image goes to even more extreme = and in this experiment, I gave a larger pinhole halo to small pinhole image = Concentric Double pinhole photo image 🙂 My approach to the Life is ” Why not ?” 😀
How you can put small hole inside of another hole ? ? ? = 😀
This is a Philosophical Problem = Hole is where VOID is = unlike gap, hole was represented by its circular edge, and this edge define the area of the Void = its inside is already Void, hence, there is nothing to form yet another hole 😀
In photographic term, Pinhole can act like a lens, provided when the correct exposure was given though, when two hole exists in the same place, how to give long enough exposure (shatter time) for smaller hole while giving shorter time for larger hole ? = 😀
—– My solution was, to cover larger hole with ND filter to reduce the incoming light.
(There is a gray filter called Neutral Density Filter to reduce the light, though together with Kodak CC (Color Compensating) filter they became hard to obtain item now.)
—– Instead to use ND filter, I found an Aluminum coted plastic film of tea packaging. —– Not good enough for normal photography yet, enough for fuzzy pinhole photography 😀
[]To measure the Density, I placed this metallic film on front of the lens = the exposure reading was dropped from 1/1000th to 1/15 = 6 stops drop on shutter speed.
Hence, the size of pinholes should have also 6 stops difference in F-aperture logarithmic scale.
(such as 2mm, 1.4mm, 1mm, 0.7mm, 0.5mm, 0.35mm. 0.25mm = larger pinhole, 2 mm and small one should be 0.25 mm) —> The metallic film was stacked behind of 2 mm pinhole and a 0.25 mm hole was pierced in the center. —– (From the result, I think, the lager hole should be 1.5 mm and smaller hole 0.18 mm = images would be a bit more sharper 😀 )
Still, the experiment which costed virtually nothing = results are not too bad 😀
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PS : Few people who has failed to do this kind of pinhole photo asked me why —– I’m using equivalent lens (this time 100mm lens) for set-up and framing, then the View-finder was covered up with black-tape. Stray light from View-finder makes wrong reading of exposure.
Most importantly, I’m using extremely capable Canon 5D (Mk 2 and Mk3).
Pinhole photography may not be done with another camera.
For instance, a pinhole shot done in 5D Mk3, with ISO 3200 and AV setting, 6 seconds —– the same pinhole mounted on Nikon D810 with the same ISO 3200 setting and 6 seconds couldn’t make picture, as it looks more than 3 stops under exposure. Even with 30 sec’, 60 sec’, 120 sec’, further with ISO setting Hi2 (equiv’ 25600) didn’t make ANY difference.
Nikon couldn’t work with non-CPU incompatible lenses.
—– I wonder if anybody has ever done Astro-photography with Nikon D810, I would like to know how it was done ?
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PPS : I found the way to to take Pinhole Photo by Nikon D810.
(1) Go to the Menu / Non-CPU Lens / and set Max F-Aperture to F22.
(2) Push Meter Coupling Lever (for Aperture Ring) anti-clock-wise, till F-aperture indicator on the Control Panel shows F45.
(3) With ISO setting, 3200 or so and [A] (Aperture priority) = camera would give more or less correct exposure.
(*) To adjust the exposure, even if you use the Exposure Time given by [A], say 2 second for Manual setting and select 1 second or 4 second —— exposure couldn’t be correct unless you push Meter Coupling Lever to F45 position. (Because, the brightness of the image was not determined by the size of pinhole and the shutter-time, but by the gain of signal amplification in the image process )
—- In fact, you can control Exposure Level by this Lever (by pushing it to F32 or F64 etc) = it is very awkward —-> Solution would be, tie a string to the Lever and fix it to the position of F45, and the Exposure adjustment should be made by changing ISO setting to another value.
London 2012 Festival at Southbank
Way back from the center and crossing the Waterloo Bridge, I saw huge Baobab like tree !
And a lots of cloud around the Southbank where Festival Hall, Hayward gallery etc are
situated = It was a festival or a kind of massive gathering 🙂 —– it seems there are some
performances but most of the people with family or friends are just hanging out there. 🙂
It was a Friday early evening. So, just have a drink and chat together.
Some set-up for the kids to play = in fact, sandy beach is a familiar set up in the Southbank.
But this time the sand got red and blue too = supposed to be the national color of the flag.
The festival is a side-show of the Olympic.
So that, there is a Fair Ground and some ride as well.
When thousands of the people comes, there always the street performers.
A magician Diobo (photo, center above) showed incredible magic which I was utterly
bemused. = As it is an open space = there couldn’t be any set-up. And he was bare-hand =
no sleeve to hide any trick —– still he could move a cigarette and rift it up from the
ground (no invisible string or strong air movement) or make a mouse disappear and
reappear from inside of an egg etc etc = may be usual staff though, what impressed me
was, as I said, its impossibility. How he could do that ?
Magic Circle must be the last secret Brotherhood. Iron rule of secrecy and the devotion
to the perfection.
Among many performers, a Yogi like performer (photo, above right) were sitting without
any movement. One was perched on top of a stick = looks fascinating though, this is not a
magic = they were just sitting on an iron frame which was hidden in there loose cloths.
And there was the anti-capitalists campaigners as well.
Those wild meadow like flower bed must be created in few days on a shallow soil brought
onto the concrete, and when the event was finished, they will be just thrown into a skip =
a symbol of superficiality of this kind of Green pretense.
Then, I took a bus to go back to my place.
(Those photos above were taken from inside of the bus)
—– all the photos were taken by Zeiss Planer 85mm F1.4 lens on Canon 5D MkIII = its mean, everything
were manual = hence, due to my eyesight some are not very well focused. 😦
(I didn’t expect to shoot the photos. Only the 85mm lens was there which I have had brought to show
to my friend 😀 )
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N’s Sports Party at Abbey
Newly wed N is a web designer and keen cyclist, traveler and doing Kinetic-sculpture as well. (hence we met many years ago on an art event). In fact, he had Stag-do in the south coast, doing canoeing etc with his old baddies weeks ago as well.
So, when I arrived to the Abbey, I was greeted by his fancy dancing. 😀
As I was warned, this party was not a kind of eat, drink and catch-up chattering but quite physical. 😀
I don’t know the name of this game, still, there is an almost identical game in Japan but played only by the kids.
Sports party though, it’s still a family occasion, N’s mum and dad and of cause his wife and her sister D were all there enjoying the company.
This game (photo above) said to be called “Sheep stack in the mud ” = may be Japanese equivalent of Oni-gokko” 🙂
On such sporting occasion, photographer shouldn’t be just an observer = gone to more pro-active. (or a bit naughty ? ! = to inflate size D to FF) — no, not me, lens did 😀
Then egg on the spoon race. Though, some confusion of the rules —– spoon on a hand or on the mouth ?
And the Prize giving ceremony = of Gold, Silver or Copper. 😀
In the same time, yet another activity which was a bit more intellectual research and the interview was carried out by D as she was a student of London Uni’
So, the party went on till sunset. It was a fantastic day and a nice quiet evening.
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