Noise in the Mad Friday

————————————————— [Night view from the Regent Studio]

The Friday, a week before the Christmas was dubbed as the Mad Friday, as so many Xmas

parties were held in this timing.   (It became apparent, that it was true, on the street scene on the way back

from the party, I saw too many drunken people hardly able to walk :-D)

And I was invited for one of them, which happened to be happened in one of a mad-house in

the north London, at Regent Studio complex next to the old Regent canal.

As huge building having so many artists, even just one floor having three parties in the same time.

And the one I went was called [nnnnn] (!) = Noise Performing Party 😀

The key person who gave me this information was, yet again the Don of the electronic everything,

James the Tallbasterd —  http://tallbasterd.wordpress.com/ — who is also organizing OWN (open wifi network)

and involved many video, music, art events —– so that I bumped many familiar faces as well.

——————————– [nnnnn] event at Ryan Jordan’s Studio / at Regent Studio, Haggerston, London]

What, I’ve planned something special for this party was to test a latest new toy came to my hand a week

ago = Canon Zoom Fish-eye lens 8mm-15mm 🙂

So far I’ve been pretty happy with my 40 years old Nikon 16mm Fish-eye lens = all of my Fish-eye photos in this

blog has been taken by this lens on Canon 5D MkII with the first ever mount adopter in the world, which I’ve

made 25 years ago, in order to use Nikon lenses on Canon EOS 620.

My general view to the lenses, Nikon had a edge over Canon about the Wide-angle lenses, though this

Canon’s Fish-eye Zoom impressed me with its even quality of the image, corner to corner even with the aperture

fully opened (though, I found quite big color aberration, and the lens is not F4, but about F4.8 = the exposure

showed half stop under —– still, it wouldn’t be so much trouble = just give an exposure compensation)

(On the photo below, blue edge of the circle was caused by the Color aberration and it is persistent in any F-stop)

—————————————————– [James Stevens  and   Adnan Hadzi]

The party started with German base beat ! with my big appreciation. And next good things was that the floor

was a painted concrete = just right grip to the shoes (fluffy carpet imped the quick foot movement)

———————————————————[James  and  Adnan]

Then, James and Adnan started their creation in their noise oscillator and the synchronized video images.

James’ noise generator has two adjustments, on top of the photo sensitive element which give a Thermin like

frequency control. —– still, the noise is nothing but noisy —– sorry to say.  Ha ha ha  😀

Noise approach to the sound hasn’t reached to the level, fit to the human consumption yet.  😀

[Rob Canning and Antonio Glanopolos] – [Jonathan Kemp] ———————-[Tim Goldie and his mate]

The second performers, — was using his electric guitar as a noise source with heavily tinkered synthesized

noise jammed with another computer generated noises.

The third performer’s sound was even more destructive computer generated bong bong noise.

( I don’t think, louder sound doesn’t mean impressive  😀  )

————————————————-[ Tim Goldie]

Then the forth group was resorting much of their sound source and lighting control in analog way = by using

snare drum as a noise generator and other (veiled lady) manually switch on and off the fluorescent lights.

This one was more of the theatrical performance than a noise player —– still as destructive as others.

Very peculiar scene was, the most of the people came to this event knowingly what the Noise

performance is, —– still, fed-up its noisiness and came-out the door to have a chat outside 😀

Well, it might be an excuse to have a party and drink. —– Ha ha ha 😀

( In fact, there was one more performer played though,  it was too much to stay inside = hence no photos )

—– Our ancestor spend hundreds of years to sort-out what the sound should be, out of the noises, and refined

the music instrument they invented, and created a way of tuning and the tonal scale, rhythm and the harmony.

Constant rhythm and its BPM, and how we feel with it,  is related to our heart beat, and the tone whether it

is miner or major is directly affecting our emotion —– anything out of this rules = random noise is a noise.

—– ? ? ?

Of cause, anybody has a right to question “ If not” —– though,  It’s a same old question.

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Funny you may find in the aspect of Zen. Zen chase the better and the best of what ever the subject.

And deal with the subject alone as if no other subject exist in the life (at the moment) = (it called mindfulness).

A Tea master may spent 10 years to achieve fine smooth bubble in his Matcha (powdered tea) = achieve the

best is (strangely) human tendency (or obsession  😀 ).  —– No question of what it is for.

It is the closed sphere or circuit.   So, to push the possibility of  Noise to the limit is exactly in the same context.

BUT, tea bubble wouldn’t affect anybody out of its sphere though, Noise travel in the air = reaching other’s ears.

It’s a trouble.    Ha ha ha  😀

Even if it stand highly philosophical, noble notion = sound only reaches to one of the most primitive  sensor of

our organ / ears = its first perception is dangerous or not, good or bad = very basic feelings = far from noble.

Still, the noise itself wouldn’t kill you, if not bad to the ears. ( Trouble is, you only realize it in your later life 😦 )

Nevertheless, seeing familiar faces and chat “ How you happen to know this ?” —– and find

the overlapping networks = in fact, how close we each others are = or how small the world is !

Loud noise would also teach you,  how nice to have quiet peace is. —– Sigh ! —– Ha ha ha 😀

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Higgs Boson and the Buddhism

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm[ Photo —- Peter  Higgs  / from  BBC News  ]

The scientific world was stirred by the news of the tale of the tail of a sub-atomic particle =

dubbed as the God Particle = Higgs Boson. —– Gotcha !

Higgs boson may not even a particle but just a remnant ripple in the invisible field.

—– Like a ripple on the still water gives off a signal, where the surface of water is, and you may notice

the existence of a clear glass panel, only when it shows a scratch mark.

—– Higgs boson is a tell-tale sign of the invisible, undetectable energy field = Higgs field which said to

give a mass to the existence.

—– When you stir a honey in a jar, you feel heavier resistance on the spoon than in a water = it would give you

heavier feeling of the same spoon. = this resistance or impedance effected on the particles (and its compound,

atoms) are called as a mass. (conventional expression of this mass in relation to the gravity is called weight =

less body weight on the Moon because of less gravity is there).

( But don’t ask me why a sub-atomic particle Neutrino can have no mass and able to move even

faster than the light. —– I don’t think even scientists does know this yet 😀 )

Still, we human seemed to discovering the relation and cause of the phenomena next by next.

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Those scientific stances are perfectly in line with the Buddhism.

In the Lord Buddha’s teachings, those relation and the cause behind of the phenomena and the existences

is the Karma, and they, all together is the Dharma.

(Hence, Dharma is all the Existences and its mechanism and the rules behind)

As the dynamics of the phenomena and its momentary appearances are time dependent, so that nothing can

stay the same or permanent. —– Therefore, no perpetual soul kind = Atman can not exist.  Hence no SELF.

The reason why Lord Buddha took this stance, instead to contributes the cause of occurrences

and existences to an imaginary supernatural power = Godly existence was, because of

Lord Buddha’s mind-set was more of the scientist not a man of religion.

Religion is the matter of the belief to a particular ideological myth = not necessary to the

factual truth, therefore,  he defined such Myth as a delusion.

—– This was why,  he was called Buddha = Enlightened man,  not a divine figure or prophet.

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But, what made Lord Buddha different from just a physicist was his observation towards the

invisible depth of the  human psyche (now we call as subconsciousness) and found a way to

reprogram this subconsciousness through the practice.

Practice to make a person able to do the things or to live, without useless thinking (in Mushin /

Mind of No-mind) and ultimately able to see the invisible part of the Dharma. (and lives with it).

Even the most advanced science still having left quite large unknown part, we human still couldn’t able to know

what ourselves are. —– Yet, the Lord Buddha’s insight was reaching to this area.

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—– In the dawn of the cosmic science, scientists imagined a medium which should fill the space of the vacuum

by which the light-wave can travel,  was the Ether.

The existence of the Higgs field could be parallel to this idea of Ether, as Higgs field fill all the space = from cosmic

space down to the internal space of the material which spread between the sub-atomic particles.

Therefore, this ultimate universal field is the invisible part of the Dharma.

—– I suspect, there could be a possibility, — this universal medium = continuous energy field

( Higgs field ) was the very medium which is contributing the way of the psychic communication,

and this is the ultimate meaning of the Dharma, 

which Lord Buddha called [Panya Paramita].

If this is the case, of cause, the Dharma is everywhere and as it immerse all the existences

= “Everybody posses the Dharma within” !

—– This is what we Zennist are aiming to see, with our practice.

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OFFENSIVE — What ? ? ?

How interesting, after more than a year, some clicked LIKE but non ever clicked Don’t like, or

never received even a single negative comment —– my You tube video clips was identified as

[Potentially Offensive] —– What ? — I beg your pardon ? ? ?

Since I couldn’t have any more information, I don’t have any detail, which one, in what extent ?

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Potentially offensive, dangerous etc can be said against anything, by anybody —–

Yes, Baseball bat, Cricket bat are [potentially] dangerous killing weapons, as the facts showed that they

have been actually used to kill a man.

Well manicured nails are [potentially] dangerous weapons, it could cause an injury which may needs

hospital treatment, where the spread of life threatening MRS is a common feature there, and a person

who contracted such deprecating illness could [potentially] die.

But those are the statistical probabilities = may be [potential] one in millions.

The notion of [offensive] came from the imagination = to make a specific imaginary

connection to something they imagined socially or personally , what-so-ever unacceptable,

even just for a single person.    If one person felt offended, it’s mean it is Offensive. —– Is it ?

Isn’t it a trouble of the person’s own imagination ? —– or obsessive delusion kind.

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While displaying thousands of killing scene video-clips from Arab springs etc, I’m nothing but amazed by

so-called [You tube community’s] mind-set.  Who are they ?

If you search in You tube while typing Virtual Woman, Funny image or Condom, you will find the

thousands of dubious images or really low grade innuendo.

As I wrote in my post featuring my sculpture Virtual Woman, I created this wire mesh torso to see how

our psyche works. —– and I made it rotates like a computer cage design like a virtual image in a screen.

—– Any 3D body-design in the computer starts from a naked body, of cause.

Putting a skin, costume comes after.  Feel explicit image out of wire mesh is a really mindful imagination !

—– Or, was it because, it looks like a human barbecue ? — “Juicy and succulent” Ha ha ha 😀

Incidentally, I saw the lords of looks like dead naked bodies in the dark basement of latest

Secret Cinema’s event at St. John’s Street, London. They looked pretty realistic in its shape though,

they were made by plastic films and shredded paper. —– so, how a twisted metal mesh can be offensive ?

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Or, are they talking about blowing-up a condom ? —– Oh, c’mon. It’s nothing new.

Hundreds of You tube images blowing up a condom.

——— ? ? ?

Or, are they trying to make a fuss, in order to stir a news, expecting me to make a mountain

out of mole hill ?  Any publicities are good for them.

Fortunately or unfortunately for them, I’m a Zen Buddhist.

I’m not seeking a trouble which wouldn’t be an exciting fun.

Even HM the Queen treasuring the drawing of penis in her collection and Tracy Ermin’s open-leg

drawing of her genitals are the ART,  so what offensive my sculptures —– is it, because they are

the great Leonard DaVinci and Tracy Ermin, but I’m just Yoshizen / Kinetorori = M m m,

Isn’t it very discriminative OFFENSIVE view ?  Isn’t it a contempt to Offend me ?

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Whether, it was their joke or not, I haven’t received any formal notice (they got my real Email address)

nor my video-clips have been removed (— yet ?) by them.

So, watch the space for any fun-full out-come. 😀

___/\___    Peace for the World and the Cyberspace.   Ha ha ha.

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PS:   After I have blogged here and Tweeted,  You tube withdrawn their comment.

—– Though, I have no idea whether they did read this blog, or just gave a second thought.   😀

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Japanese New Year’s Card 2012 (2) / DRAGON IMAGE

It’s interesting to think, how the ancient Chinese got idea of the Dragon. —– ? ? ?

Their Dragon doesn’t looks like a Snake neither Lizard or Crocodile, but an element of all those,

except its head and the face (some said, that the head with its mane was inspired by a hose)

Still, its image and the myth has been in their culture thousands of years. —– where it came from ?

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Neither I know the origin of the Western Dragon which got separate wings.

As Chinese Dragon can fly without having the wings, it is even more mysterious than a looks rational (?) western

Dragon. —– still, the Western Design doesn’t anatomically convincing  (in comparison to the wings of a Bat).

So that, when I designed my Flying Dragon, I didn’t put fore-legs to it.

Anyhow, it is a pure imaginary existence, what so ever the design it is the design, as long as it looks fearsome 😀

The Flying Dragon which got 3m wing-span,  flaps its wings and kicks the legs.   And the head (right photo) got

blue fire in the eyes and the mouth blow a fire —- well, supposedly.  Yes, it did frighten the people    😀

( The reason why the wings are not fully covered was, because of the air resistance — motor wasn’t big enough)

The next photos are the Wire Dragon called Dino  🙂   Its moving image is in the You-tube ;

—– http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZV0Oyl0B_0g    or click the Link on the right side-bar ( Associates )

I made this, when I was in the South Bank Uni’  Engineering Product Design, Master Course and

the identical (well, more or less) twin is in their permanent collection ( indefinite on loan to them).

The graphic image (right) would be easier to compose for a card.

Lastly, this is the Try-Headed Dragon.  It moves the Heads like the Snakes.

The head was made by a beer can and the long neck is the shower hose.

—– Well, it’s still a kind of the Dragon, don’t you think ?

And the brush Calligraphy are all greeting word for the New Year which

may be composed with the Dragon image to make a New Year’s Card.

( Be sure, never put it, up-side-down or use it for tattoo stencil  😀 )

Rest of the work is up to you.

(I myself is not very keen to use Photoshop, which I learned when

it was a version 3,  and don’t remember how to use !   😀 )

(Left / Read as Gashow  / Congratulate the New Year )  ———–( Right / Read as Gei-Shunn / Welcome the Spring)

—————————————- (Middle /Read as Kinga-Shin-nen / Happy New Year)

Try work hard,  still,  it will be a fun —– it’s a pleasure to live a creative life   🙂

Making a Card would nothing to do your survival, in other words, it is purely for a sake of making card.

( Exactly same as me to create the Kinetic Dragon sculptures = they are utterly useless for my survival )

Nothing essential for the life, it’s mean, it is a light hearted selfless act = Act in Mushin.

Still, you need to work with full concentration (mindfulness) and do it in your best.  Otherwise the result

wouldn’t be an up to the standard.  If it isn’t good enough, try again and again.  You can perfect it.

This is the Zen in action.  Zen is everywhere.  In fact our dairy life is the Zen, provided

you live it in your best, with your mindfulness.

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Japanese New Year’s Card 2012 (1)

Observing the search terms which the readers has expected to find here and typed,  indicates, quite a lot of

people are expecting to see the Japanese New Years Card design. —– in effects, it is

the customer’s feed-back, data for a market research for a blogger.  😀

Well well, a humble Zennist Yoshizen is here to serve,  as the charity is in our duty.    Ha ha ha  😀

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Though, I couldn’t find the same in the Japan Post’s site this year, or it might be too early.

Instead, I found those free sample image by Googling  in Japanese writing.  The images came from ;

http://www.nenga-juunisi.net/frame-menu.html

( ### Free though, use the image other than personal  New Year’s Card was prohibited by their  Copyright)

—– If anybody is searching in the Net, my advice is NEVER go to so-called Free design site such as

[Mywebsearch] which is offering free card design = if you click their [Downlord], what comes to your PC is

not the design sample but a blatant Trojan-horse which spy and send out all of your Web-log.

How blatant is, it shows you [Terms and Condition] which says “You agree with us to send the data to the third

party” though, there is no click button for you to say [Yes] or [Not Agree] = they start their spy activity at once.

Even if this is nothing but a Trojan-horse = Malware, still,  a person clicked [Down lord] and clicked [Yes] to

agree the program goes into the Hard Drive (believing it is a design sample)  Security Program can’t work.

—– and to remove this Malware, lots of works was needed.  ( their hidden program changes the setting of

such as [Favorite] of starting task, their front page was kept coming back = needed to reset the start

menu —– what a hell. )   In comparison, the Japanese is only fraction of the English speaking population

and the spied data in Japanese is hard to utilize = very few Malware is infesting their site.

Those card designs (in JPEG)  are supposedly [Click and Save] then email as an attachment or for print out

for snail-mail though, I haven’t tested it myself —– I hope, should no instruction in Japanese comes with.  😀

By the way,  why the title  got  – – -2012 (1) is,  – – -2012 (2) will coming soon = watch the space.

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WRONG ? — or Just don’t LIKE it ?

While fallen leaves are disappearing from the street and the trees are getting naked,

I encountered the Cherry blossoms in a small green space.

Since this unusually warm autumn, many reports saying the flowers are opening

as they mistook it as this is already a spring.

In a normal condition, when the flowers open, many honey bee etc. are there

to pollinate the flowers, hence the fruits and the seeds would be developed.

But this is a dark, cold November. Even a single creeping insect is not in sight.

It’s mean all the energy and the effort to produce the flowers would be wasted.

—– presuming, the flowers are there only for the reproduction of the species.

Is it true ?  In fact, many garden variety of the Cherry tree having their flower in the winter time.

In Japan, they are called  Kan-zakura (Winter cherry) and quite few famous tourist spot to see the blossoms

even in February.  As they don’t have cherry fruits, they are propagated by grafting.  It’s mean, they

couldn’t exist without having human intervention = not natural =  is it wrong ? —– I’m not sure.

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Value system is a human invention.  To appreciate cherry blossom in the winter is one view and judging

it unnatural is the another. —— Once we go into this area, it would open a can of worm = as we human created

so many [not necessary natural practice] —— such as sexuality, even a religious practice etc.

( Just think about the stance of the Afghan Tariban and the women’s right there)

Then give a thought or two —— [Normal] or not, is a matter of statistic = though, larger number doesn’t

mean they are right.  [Right] or wrong —– WHO said so and in WHAT context.  [Rational] or not, still having

uncertainty = even the science doesn’t know whole truth yet.

—– so, we settle most primitive and cheapest mean [Like or Not] = emotion and instinct based judgement.

This judgement is the most reliable judgement to the person though, in the same time it is

notoriously easily biased, and often confused with wishful thinking.

That is why, the Buddhists are saying [see it without the Self] = [eyes of Mushin] = absolutely

detached objective view though, if only you can do this.

(Trouble is HOW do others know and convinced,  that the person did it in Mushin )

If you are a Buddhist, try this and think ” Was it any different from Just Like it ? ” )

I myself is doing this, because it is easiest and quickest.  (I’m lazy to think too much,

hence giving no second thought though, others often complain   😀  )

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Din = Software of the Year

One of my keen reader,  Jagannathan is the one who read all  the post and remember what I said in where.

He is a computer programmer and designing open-source music program = [ Din – Din is Noise ],

and it was selected for the [Software of the Year Award] by the Pixelache.

—– see the detail in this link;

http://www.pixelache.ac/helsinki/2011/piksel11-pixelache-sotfware-of-the-year-2012/

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As a matter of fact,  I’ve mentioned him several times here, as the person having the notorious 8150 number

appeared in his life, hence I advised him ” The Dharma must be appreciated you creating

a program in open-source / for anyone’s use for free —– it is a selfless act “

So that, this time he was awarded for his activities and the quality of the work.   Congratulation !

—– Though, there was a shortfall.

As he dedicated his life to create own program, he didn’t pay much attention for a time-keeping.

Hence, his privilege to see me in person has been denied.  Ha ha ha  😀  (Still, he is free to read and put

comments to my blog.  He just lost a fun to tease me face to face, while having a lunch together  😀  )

Never mind, for him to work for the Dharma selflessly,  is the matter.

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Yoshizen is a landscape, to learn a thing or two.  Once learned, then walk further ahead.

After all, everybody having own Karma and the different Pathway —– hence have to find the own Zen.

To find what the Dharma has given to a person, and to follow it, is  what ” Live with the Dharma”  meant.

And ” The Dharma in YOU” really meant.

The idea of the Soft design comes from the depth in one’s mind.

In that depth, sublimated idea of the structure of the Soft lies = which has been given by the Dharma.

People often say “Got idea from  xxx” or “Inspired by xxx” but didn’t aware that the Karma was behind =

[How and Why encountered the xxx] = there always the flow of the Karma = This is what the Pathway is.

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Artist’s Party just went on and on and on —–

Last week-end there was an artist’s party which turned out to be pretty big fantastic party.

Artists though, it’s not a fine-art kind, Stage designer, Sound engineer, Film (video) maker, Photographer,

Graphic designer, Costume designer, DJ  etc etc, —— in certain extent, they are working craftsman.

Hence, talking are not abstract theory but more practical, technical kind which I like more.

As it was a party, my main aim was to have an enough exercise (generally called dancing)  with Jungle

or German base kind of music.  And I went there with Camera and my Rotating LED dancing costume.  😀

As the theme of the Party was the God, Goddess, kind  🙂  some had appeared with rather fancy attire

and a make up (and some had gone pretty far —– though, for the Stage, Film people it must be easy business.)

Whole house has been decorated with huge print out of Godly figure and the decorations.

Egyptian to Roman, even a Japanese mythical Goddess of Amateras  !

And of cause,  looks not necessary Godly figured folks as well —– ( So-called good earthly creatures  😀 )

A specially designed strange furniture (?) for the party was = like this in the photo. (You put name it)

Which can be climbed and parched on it = rather comfortable to sit on.

Where such imagination came from, and the effort to build this, from scratch,  just for a fun for

one night party ! —– This is the demonstration of an Italian extravaganza !

As in a guise of Venerable Holy Man Yoshizen  😀    I drunk orange juice.   (I brought Apple juice, since I hate Apple

though, it disappeared, hence I had to settle with orange ) —– was not a big issue though.

And so on —– so on.

Since the house literally having Audio engineer, DJ-in-residents, their set up was professional.

And the friends came to see and dance, expecting to have it in professional standard.  🙂

Good, good.  Excellent  🙂

And it went on and on and on —— till next morning.

This is what the Party should be.  And it was a terrific fun.

___/\___  ( It doesn’t contradict  Zen  😀  /  Far from it,  just giving a fun for hundred of the guests,

—————-pay so much effort and the work, and perfected it —– is nothing but the Zen.

—————-Believe me, as Yoshizen is saying so.   Ha ha ha  😀  )

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Run for a Bus

On the way to a weekly gathering of the Wireless Wednesday

(WiFi Net geek’s work shop) at Greenwich,

I saw a back of a bus just gone from the stop.   Then the bus was stopped on a traffic light.

Can I catch it at the next bus stop ? —– should I run or not ? —– In fact, I did and managed

to get on board. (otherwise, it could have been another quarter to half an hour wait, as this service is

rather poor) —– it may not be an old Buddhist’s like hassle.

Is it ? —– Seeing a back of a bus, therefore accept the bad timing = is this, a grown-ups decent

contemplation ?    Rush to the next bus stop instead and catch it, isn’t this an effort we should give ?

(Don’t laugh this, as a mediocre Bus story = take it as a metaphor as we are always facing

this kind of situation every day.)

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When we faced a difficult situation,  even impossible or  too late.

One attitude is to give up, forget it, and just get on the life. This is one of the way to

keep one’s peace of mind.   As it accept the situation and follow the fate, it is quite

Buddhist’s like contemplation, some might say. —– is it ?

—– In reality, this is all about what we call [Decision making] in our life.

To see a possibility or feasibility (in comparison to one’s ability) and challenge it to do.

How important and how big the possibility = expectation to succeed.

Don’t expect too much. Know the one’s limit and the size, is the wise man’s advice,

hence, to [know who you are], and to have [humble life] is in fact, a kind of safe bet.

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In the early time, Buddhism took this approach, hence hundreds of rules of [Don’t do this]

of which some sect even calls them as Dharma (to call man’s words as Dharma is nothing but a

preposterous arrogance though) —– normally, do nothing would cause fewer possibilities of

making mistakes.

It looks true, as it would give a kind of peace at least  😀

Therefore, abandon the ordinary life, cessation of relation, complete detachment to the mess of

human life, not to do this and that etc etc —– then a question arose, what for we are here ?

—– is this what the Dharma created us for ?

What Buddha denied was the ego and the useless thinking. But those so-called rules are

nothing other than an artificially composed man’s idea remote from the human nature.

This was the beginning of the Mahayana Buddhism.

Exactly same logic to deny the ego / self was used to deny the idea to deny the human nature.

Hence the Mahayana approach was established = do what you need to do, suffer as you

have to suffer = this is what the Dharma is.

But when the one does something, what extent the person should go ?

What is within the limit of the Dharma, which isn’t go into the ego and the greed, obsession

—– then, the idea of  [Middle-way]  was developed.

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So, the real Buddhism wouldn’t impose you “not to run for a bus” 😀

Far from it, Dharma will count the effort of a person.

Since the Dharma is not for the degeneration, but for evolution and active development

= unless otherwise we are not here today as us, and being extinct long ago.

Run for the bus = the reason why the bus showed its back and halted on the traffic light was = it gave

an opportunity for me to run.    Take a risk.   Challenge the project which you conceived = you to

have conceived the idea was for you to challenge it task = otherwise the Dharma wouldn’t

have chosen you to conceive its idea in the first place.

Do your best. Just do it.

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Desire and Greed (2)

The first moment when I became aware the connection between Zen and the programming

of the subconsciousness (so-called mind-set) was, when I gave up any relation with woman.

It was triggered by two factors appeared on 1987. One was the first report of incurable new disease AIDS

(it didn’t have even a name then) = sexual relation is no longer safe.

And the other was the start of a trouble with a woman who exploited my VISA status by a false registration

of the marriage done in Japan, in order to get new passport and obtained the VISA masqueraded as my wife.

(It took 11 hearing in the High Court to make the Judge to realize it really happened without my knowledge.

—– Japanese Registrar had no way to know whether my signature was genuine or not and the name seal

was mine or false one, woman bought in the stationery shop, which she confessed and astonished the Judge)

(Yet still The Judge who didn’t even know the difference of [Void and Voidable Marriage] made

this to a valid marriage, hence it was brought up to the Court of Appeal)

= I really utterly fed up “Woman is nothing but a trouble” (in addition to this Judiciary is utterly rotten) 😀

(Funny story is, I was told that the trouble with woman will happen, by my mother as she read

my palm when I was 10 years old —– for me,  it sounds just an unscientific mambo-jumbo then)

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It caused me not only a deep psychological trauma but the situation itself made any relation impossible.

In order to fight over the validity of the marriage in the High Court and the Court of Appeal, it completely

consumed my time, finance and energy.  All of my friends were even amazed, how I could manage without

braking down.  ( Still,  it was not as heavy as mountain climbing as there may not be a danger of death.

After all, proceedings is the research of precedence and compiling documents = clerical work = Just do it )

—-whether it was my choice or not, I had to follow the situation and

think “I’m not in a position even to think about woman” = it was not a relative matter, but absolute

imperative = (this is so-called Mindfulness) — as this psyche sunk deep down to my subconscious, 

the notion of woman has disappeared and it became a distant land scape.

(Still, they are visually pretty land scape though,

they no longer appeal to my mind / in a sexual context —– then I realized

“Aha, this is the very eyes of so-called Medical Detachment of a Gynecologist” 😀 )

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So that, when I was a regular in the Fridge Club, Brixton London (Escape from Samsara), every weekend

for nearly 6 years, I was just dancing there without mixing with cloud.

Many people mistook me as a special security or under-cover policeman even the owner of the club,

because I don’t take alcohol neither drug, never talk with girls (except the bar staff) still always there.

In reality, seeing hundreds of half-naked girls shaking their bottom every week, made me even more

insensitive, if not utterly nauseating.

I was there not just for dancing, but like a zoological researcher to observe male-female behavior.

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As a matter of fact, I myself had amazed by this change of psyche.

Since, even the most fundamental instinct could disappear just with a mind-set,  it convinced me

that all the fancy stories in the martial art, sword mastery must be true = they really

able to overcome the fear of the death,  hence able to come closer to hair-line distance to the enemy’s sword.

—– Liberate the mind from the fear, hence able to obtain the ultimate freedom of the movements.

Then all the Zen stories, has started fallen into the places, like the pieces of Jigsaw Puzzle,

and it started to show whole picture of what the Zen is.

Zen is not an ideological / religious mambo-jumbo but a very logical / rational mind engineering.

—– As even the most fundamental instinct / sexual desire could be annihilated, why not any another desire or

the mind.   What is the point to be imprisoned by such desire or being obsessed and become greedy.

We can make ourselves free from any mind, idea or the situation, and able to choose what ever

better to do.   This freedom is the Enlightenment.

(But remember, don’t chose chocolate and junk food 😀 )

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